I searched for a chat room just to talk to someone about killing myself. There doesn’t seem to be such a thing. I’m really not suicidal, I don’t want to kill myself, I just want to die. About 3 weeks ago I was with my dad when he died. It was the worst experience of my life, yet a beautiful one. He was almost 98 yrs. old and went very peacefully, at the end. And, it’s really brought back all my wishes for death. I was hospitalized once and diagnosed suicidal. But, I had no clear plan even then, I just wanted to die. My […]
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Bonnita
Bonnita
A fifty-something, lonely, mom of a troubled teen. I'm a special education teacher. I grew up on a farm and just lost my dad, he was a wonderful man and there is a big hole in my heart, now. I am not in a "good place" right now in my life, but better times will come and I hold onto that to keep me going.