Mental illness sucks. You can have everything you’ve ever wanted and still be so unsatisfied. I would never wish depression or anything else on my greatest enemy. It really fucks you up when you can never be truly happy with anything in your life.
I never thought I would be where I am now. On medications to stabilize my mood, in therapy, and not wanting to experience life. I’m in a relationship I’ve always wanted, and yet so unsatisfied because I consantly worry about him leaving me suddenly even though he does nothing to make me think that way. I thought with the help I’d be doing better but I hardly leave my bed and its so hard for me to do anything. Most days I’ve considered myself to just be giving up in school considering I can’t focus long enough to get anything done ever. I’m almost a […]
All my life I’ve had the same reoccurring problem: I have never been able to make my parents proud of me. My relationship with them is almost nonexistent. My relationship with my mom will always be the one that bothers me the most. I can never get any sort of praise out of her. Even when I get A’s in classes and on assignments she always tells me I could “do better if i tried harder”, and this gives me the idea I will never meet her expectation which takes a huge toll on my self confidence and makes me afraid of disappointing others. I […]