Hey there….
I planned to kms tonight…
i already planned everything ….
goodbye
i promise everything gonna be alright for you .
it is not because you’re seeing everyone down on this app that you have to .
everyone will be ok for you , not for me.
stay safe !
My problem is that i hear too much voices and too much noises in my mind , i have hallucination and i derealize very often but that’s ok
i have all symptoms , it’s not new .
what should i do?
here a list of people i lost in my whole life :
Niela (born August 4th 1996 , killed herself December 5th 2012)
Dereck ( born July 7th 1994 , died in a car crash December 31st 2012)
Renata ( born December 18th 1998 , killed herself November 23rd 2015)
Gaviella ( born September 12th 2006 , died of leucemia May 16th 2016)
Kapriella ( born ???? , killed herself July 11st 2017)
Cameron ( May 28th 1999, died of epilepsy July 6th 2019)
Winona ( January 2nd 2000, killed herself March 5th 2022)
Mary-Ann ( June 5th 1980 , killed herself June 5th 2022)
I plan to kms on November 23rd .
I don’t really know how or where but i know when …
I plan to do it on 23rd but the date doesn’t really matter , at least it’s on November.
My heart melts with joy and anxiety thinking about it .
i am really lonely since he abandonned me.
DEVON ;
was one of the best friend i ever had ; met him on September 14th after talking about the perfect buddy with my friend Justin .
I met him and instantly became crazy about him!
we held our hands together right after meeting.
Then life was like easier when Devon was here.
He stopped talking […]
Is it really suicide if i’m already dead inside ?
When I was around 12 I made my biggest attempt , life was so awful and nasty ,
had to move to Kiyv because of my father’s work , it was pretty cool but i was very far from my family who stayed in Novoboriisk , ofc i had to change school but i had 1 friend in there : Nykola .
I was in a bad mood since several days already , moving made it worse !
September 1st came really quickly , i wasn’t very happy bc Nykola wasn’t in my class ;-;
I started cutting myself two weeks after and i completly stopped eating other thing […]
I made a post where i talk about THE truth about what Sheena said so :
Sheena is a 2003 who was in my big sister’s school when she was around 8 ,
Niela wasn’t very cool with Sheena and her friends BUT she didn’t harmed them
We moved days before my birth and Niela didn’t keep in eyes Sheena and all of her friends.
Nearly 2010 , my big sister opened a blog about Tokio Hotel with my mother : Mary-Ann
They loved thotel so much !
Sheena too , unfortunately for Niela ,
Sheena started scolded my sister , telling her she was awful for leaving her and “their ” […]
Hello ,
I’m really really angry that people think Sheena tells the truth ,
In fact Sheena is still alive and she’s on her way to celebrate her 19 birthday ,
Bridget didn’t log into Sheena’s account and Chiara doesn’t exist as Niela .
BUT
Niela was MY big sister and she killed herself on the fifth of december 2012 at only 16 years old .
The band is not real too , only the story with that one girl is real ,
That one girl Sheena told you is Renata Kambolina , known as Rina Palenkova and me and my family ALWAYS knew that ,
” Misha ” does exist but his […]