I can’t deal with it anymore, I just want at least 1 good day just 1 day where I don’t cry, don’t feel the urge to cut and don’t wish I could end it all. Yet again I’ve not left the house, I’ve just sat around all day playing with my razor and realising that I can’t do this anymore. The pain in my knee is so excruciating an no matter how many pills I pop the pain won’t go away. I’m just so sick and tired of being alone and not have anybody to be there or to just talk to. I’ve not left […]
I can’t do it anymore. Or can I? Even my own brain can’t decide what it wants  anymore. I use to be happy, I used to enjoy life but not it seems that that enjoyment is more and more fleeting. I seem to have about 1 good day in life every month, but even that seems to be becoming a struggle. Everything I had in life I lost, everything that was good and worth living for was lost. The only man who I have ever loved broke up with me for someone else, I lost my job due to a serious knee injury whilst playing […]