I decided that this life is no longer worth living. Â The love of my life has officially left me and I have nothing left to live for. Â I already know where and how i will do it. Â I’m making it a double attempt so if one fails the other won’t. Â My letters are almost written and then I will out them all in envelopes with people’s names on them. Â Each will have a generic letter and one personal letter. Â I get a fresh battle of meds on Monday and I have some muscle relaxers and oxicodon left so the combination should do me in. Â I […]
I am lost in my false reality. Ever sense the love of my life left me I don’t know what to do with myself. He told me he needed time to get his life together and I said I would wait. But the longer I wait the harder it gets. I didn’t want people to know how hurt I was so I tell them we are engaged and will elope next year. If they ask where he is i say away on business. I thought letting myself live in this dream would make me feel better but it just makes me more depressed. I don’t […]