I am not doing this anymore…
I loved him so truly and deeply and his departure shattered me. I thought not seeing his face and being able to laugh and smile and be happy with him would be the hardest part; but I was wrong. I see him in everything: from the way the sun sets on the horizon to the still waters of the river early in the morning, I hear his laugh in the breeze of the wind. I see him in the way the rain drops and dances across the pavement as it cleanses the world of it’s sorrows. I see his beautiful eyes in the stars and […]
Every Tuesday I sit in a therapy office and get told that as long as I take my medicine and think of all the positives I will be, “okay.” Dr. Herr looked at me one day and asked me something I’ve never really thought about before and it completely shattered me..”when were you last happy, when have you felt ‘normal’?”…The last time I woke up and wasn’t terrified to get out of bed and wasn’t so nervous about life tumbling down around me that I had a panic attack, was when I was locked up in a Psych ward. I tried to drown myself in […]