I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. MY HEART IS BROKEN, I LOST MY LOVER AND MY BESTFRIEND. SHES NEVER COMING BACK. AND THE WORST PART IS THAT I DROVE HER AWAY WITH ALL MY INSECURITIES. NOT TRUSTING HER ALL THE NAGGING AND PUSHING HER AWAY. I LOST THE BEST AND WORST PART OF ME FOREVER. SHE NEVER WANTS TO SEE ME.AND ITS ALL MY FAULT. AS I SIT HERE WITH TEARS RUNNING DOWN MY EYES IM LOST WITHOUT HER. MY LIFE IS OVER…. I CANT LIVE WITHOUT HER. I CANT … I CANT PICK UP THE PIECES ON THIS ONE. MY HEART IS BROKEN. NO AMOUNT OF THERAPY CAN HELP WHEN I CAN BARELY GET OUT THE BED. THE DOCTORS HAVE DOUBLED MY MEDS YET EVERYDAY IM STILL CRYING MY EYES OUTS. IM USELESS AND MY LIFE IS WASTING BEFORE ME BECAUSE IM STUCK, IM STUCK ON HER. MY THOUGHTS ARE OF ONLY HER. HOW I WOULD LOVE TO HEAR HERR VOICE JUST ONE MORE TIME. OR TO BRUSH HER LIPS AGAISNT MINES. HOW MY HEART YEARNS FOR HER HEART ONE MORE TIME. TO FEEL HER TOUCH AGAINST MY SKIN. MY SOUL SEARCH FOR HERS. IT BREAKS ME DOWN EACH TIME I CRY OUT FOR HER AND SHES NOT THERE. IF ONLY TO SAY IM SORRY MY DEAR. I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU ….
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My kik is prefectlybroken504. I need someone to talk to before I walk out my house and go to the nearest bridge and jump. I’m lost and broken and need help picking up the pieces. I don’t want to live but i do. I think my thoughts are getting the best of me. And I don’t know what to do. I’m 22 years old. I’ll be 23 in a few months if I live that long.
I can’t rest, my mind in total chaos. My emotions are doing what they do best, running a muck through my veins flowing to my heart choking me with every thought. I am lost unable to process my thoughts. My voice is gone, I’m choking am I alive? My thoughts wrapped around my throat. As my thoughts continue to flow, the choking keeps growing. My heart beat it’s slowing, my body emotionally dying….
my soul is broken. I’m so lost. The voices inside my head won’t rest. My tears shed like rain. The storm is wild and cannot be contained. My heart is full of so much pain. I want it all to end. My life is worthless, I am worthless. God why did you create me? Why am I here? Everyday I hope and pray to be taken from this world. 4 suicide attempts all failed. I can’t even kill myself right. My last wish is to leave this world in peace no pain. I’ve had enough, I’m choking on my thoughts. I am lost!!! Help someone please kill me. End my pain. Please! Â RonnieOG