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Another day begins, make it stop

by brokenandbent30 8/30/2016

written by brokenandbent30

I lie here now shedding tears because a new day is beginning and I don’t want it to. I don’t belong here. People in my house get up and act happy and actually function. I stay in bed playing dead. I have no motivation or ambition to get up. For what? I don’t have a job because I can’t work. I don’t have the will to exercise anymore because I don’t care about jackshit. A plane could crash into my room like Donnie Darko and I would be thankful it’s finally over.

I’ve lost the will to live. I used to fight. I fought so hard, […]

8/30/2016 2 comments

Humiliation

by brokenandbent30 8/24/2016

written by brokenandbent30

Being humiliated is the worst thing that can happen to me, it goes back to junior high and traumatized me. Today, I had a family member drive me to the drug store. I had to get shampoo and other personal items. I also went ahead and told the cashier to open the liquor cabinet for me. We were having a lovely conversation.

The family member who brought me was in the car the whole time and just as the woman was opening the liquor cabinet, she comes barging in the store yelling “I HAVE TO GO! I’M ABOUT TO LEAVE! WHAT ARE YOU DOING WITH THAT? […]

8/24/2016 4 comments

Just blew up at my grandmother

by brokenandbent30 5/16/2016

written by brokenandbent30

My grandma has been living here because of certain circumstances, but she keeps inviting over my little bad ass cousin and she disrupts the entire house! My grandma even told her it was all right for her to stay today and she missed school. For what? Just to go around and get on everyone’s nerves in the house? The girl does NOT listen at all. She’s a bad apple. Period. The girl finally left today and I heard her tell my grandma “See you next week” so I blew the fuck up at my grandmother because this is NOT just her house.

It’s so inconsiderate to […]

5/16/2016 4 comments

My lil’ bro’ is serious about suicide

by brokenandbent30 3/1/2016

written by brokenandbent30

This hurts my heart more than anything in the world. He graduated from high school, he’s 20 yrs old he knows this society is bullshit and he doesn’t want to work his life away to get nowhere. The part that really scared me was when he was talking about taking other people out with him.

He is upset with my cousin because he uses my grandmother. She has always been an enabler. She let’s him sell her script of Narco to get money but he doesn’t even need it! He takes pictures of himself holding up tons of cash and fronting like he’s working and all […]

3/1/2016 6 comments

Date tonight

by brokenandbent30 1/8/2016

written by brokenandbent30

I was so done after this veteran was full of crap when I dated him. I even went out of my way to get transportation to see him. That’s how much I cared. He told me he was in love with me and other sweet things. I get too caught up in words. They mean nothing. After seeing him and not hearing from him, I went on the dating site and told him off. I told him I hope someone breaks his heart. He said he couldn’t find my number, but he could have easily found me on the dating site like I found him. […]

1/8/2016 5 comments

The middle of the night tears me apart

by brokenandbent30 12/25/2015

written by brokenandbent30

I just don’t think I can keep this up. This emptiness inside every night. I even had a great text conversation with a guy who seems cool from a dating site. I still long to die. Or just not exist.

I also realize I’m love with a celebrity. I’ve followed him on Twitter for years and actually met him at his show and took a picture with him. He recognized me. I didn’t expect to fall in love with his personality. This probably sounds insane, but it hurts SO BAD!! To want someone you can never ever have. It’s just torture and he has a girlfriend […]

12/25/2015 6 comments

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