He could have put dagers into my heart, and it would hurt much less. He could have shot me even. Everything would have been easier. His goal, was killing me inside slowly. Wasn’t that everyones wish? It’s now mine. Do you know what it’s like ? To count your breaths? As you regret each and everyone one. Hearing your heart beat so fast? Wishing it was just your last? I wish..hope..now and here to, soon end it. Just as many people do. But this time, it’s NO ONE’s choice, but my own.<3
BrokenDarkGoddess
“I couldn’t ever hurt you.” “You mean the world to me.” “Your the only girl i will ever want.” “I love you.” “Of course i fucking love you, i wanna marry you 10 years from now.” The things he said to me. The way they made my heart fill with something i never have, have, nor feel any longer. He knows that. Pure happiness. That’s all he was to me. As he called me and said those things, i sat there on the phone crying every single tear my body could make..i sat there crying so hard my heart broke more every word passed. “You […]
I remember who i was before i met him. How perfect things were, well close to it anyway. The days i said drugs were something i wouldn’t ever do. The days i had friends, and well, a life. I still do have one, but i feel dead inside. So dead i no longer sleep. So dead i can’t eat. So dead, my heart can’t feel anymore because it is so numb. I’m afraid to think sometimes because my thoughts are no longer happy. As a matter of fact, i don’t remember the feeling of real happiness. I wish people cared. I wish my own parents […]