A few nights ago was a disaster, I got wasted and ruined the night for my friends. I don’t want to get into details in case they’re on here (which I doubt). Just when things were starting to go well this happens, and I don’t know what to do anymore. My brain is a mess and I don’t know what to say to convince myself this time. I keep trying the new week new me format. But then it crashes. Over and over again. I do something stupid and watch it get fucked all over again.
This time I couldn’t figure out what to […]
What’s up gang, it’s burgerpatty.
I’ve been writing entrance exams for college recently and have been tanking them, I mean absolute abysmal marks.
I was a straight A student and now I barely pass, I screwed up my exams so bad people couldn’t believe the marks I was getting. But I’ve never felt this alive a light, I stopped cheating, these are the marks I deserve, it feels like some sort of atonement for all the things I did for marks.
I’m not giving up on myself, each day I wake up with motivation and am the happiest I have ever been.
As for college, […]
I’m sitting in class right now, it’s online and I can’t focus. I’ve been trying to motivate myself for a week now, tried reading biographies, music, watching motivational movies but I move back into the same rut, I’ve even tried meditation. Nothing helps anymore, nothing takes me out of this routine. I’m a senior in school, I need to ace a bunch of exams in a few months to get into a good college but I’m way behind on my studies.
I know that I have to sit down and get cracking and to not look at the huge pile of books I have […]