Yea, i put a smile on my face but its fake. I just wanna leave this world. I tried to commit suicide so many times but i always stop because there could be one person who loves me but i doubt it. I cut. It doesnt release any pain inside. I cry all the time but no one notices or cares. Why should they care? Beats me. I just cant deall with all the hate and people telling me to just die. Its getting pretty damn close for me to actually do it.