Still alive,……….. haven’t logged in in over a month.
There were a couple of people which built their own machine and ended it all. Gruesome because uasually they aren’t found for days or weeks. The head still has conscieness after being severed for a few moments maybe a minute or more. Seem like it would take some carpentry skills and some basic common sense as to how it would actually works.
As I’m sitting here, I’ve heard at least 3 different gun fights with in blocks of where I live. It every night there are gunshots just blocks away. I think did anyone get hit, or are the drug deallers just shooting randomly.
I found this tonight while talking to a friend. This is the other side of NDE’s, it’s all natural due to the lack of oxygen to the brain and just a normal dream or abnormal dream experience.
I guess I always looked at it from Penn and Teller’s view, yet I still chose to believe that even if its a man made situation that brings humans to the point of this experience it still niether proves nor disproves that there is or isn’t anything past this existence.
Thankfully people speak up for both sides of this issue.
I have to give credit to SoftSoul for posting a link last week, I just found a few extra videos at Anita’s site, also including the first 2 that SoftSoul had linked here.
To all which seek with open minds about the afterlife, or alternate existence after physical death
Three to five times (times varying from weeks to months) I would have a firearm, and sit with it, sleep with it, cock the hammer put it to the side of my head and yet even in deep emotional crrisis could not pull the trigger ?
I know there are alot of younger people here and really haven’t had access to guns, so may not get any responses.
Guns leave alot of messy stuff that has to be cleaned up, what thee police leave at a suicide scene coulb possibly be cleaned up by family. No one would want a family member to do this.
I also think […]
Have not slept in days, constant stress.
I noticed in the moments I close my eyes I’m having these visions of like the NDE stories, i wonder if lack of eating is doing this.
Well I failed 2 previous times to keep the mask on. After reading some NDE stories I would think it would reflect the natural process of having the lungs stop.
I was thinking to use a nother mode, when it hit me I wasn’t ready, I stilll might not be ready.
All I know to believe is what I’ve been reading in the NDE stories.
Its a choice, my physical self isn’t going to want to allow me to pass out, because it knows once your unconscience your a goner.
I dislike failures at this stuff.
When people close to us know or sense that we are suicidal they feel so helpless to stop it
They just stop texting, calling, eamiling,
It has to be painful for them, waiting for, yet never wanting to receive that knock on the
door, or have look out there window and see a squad car turning in.
They know that they will be hearing of our death.
Its too much for them too bare, so the fear keeps them from staying in contact, like a self protection
mode.
It seems that we are all over the world, and when I’m on the site
there is a flurry at different times of the day.
What part of the world are you in ?
I took 4 days worth of heroin, 5 xanaxm 6 somams. and abour b8 laortab 10’s.
WTF dors it take to leave here. I’m so screwed.
this was 3 days ago, I’ve been in some wired dream state, between actualitity and being awake.
three nights ago I consumed suppossedly 4 days worth of heroin (of course on purpose). I ate 5 Somas, 6 Xanax and had eaten probably 8 lortab 10s during the day. I wrote out my last letter,
GTFW, I freakin woke up. …………….. I mean what the fu ,,,,,,,,,,,,,, does a person have to do to leave this place.
I know tolerance has alot to do with createing an overdose, but come on WTF, I used herioin once back in the 1980’s, this time i snorted it, forced myself to swallow all the differerrnt pills, OK there is a little tolerance with the benzoes, yet the combination with […]
Trying to ;limit the harm that we do should br careflly thought out.
Leaving as lttle on scene trauma as possible is my motto.
I finnally found the quantity of method am too use. From what I’ve read online, the right amount and tolerance to the specific always have variables.
It’s really to write this post, I’m seeing triplicate and higher as the combination of items are entering the blood stream.
I know this site has saved many and have given hope to the hopless.
I’m really loaded as I write this, alot of nausia, no vomiting yet.
caucajun, peace out
I really don’t want to ruin anyones holiday, or uture holidays, yet the time is near and I can;t determine when. All I know is when the pain exceededs the will to bear it the ned will be at hand.
I have 2 methods, niether of which I want to use, a third didn’t materialize, can’t trust “Real” druggies to get what you wnat when you want it.
The wrecked lives I will leave, these lives are wrecked either way. If I stay, those lives are wrecked by many years of me being incarcerated, at my age I will probably die inside without ever seeing the free […]
Do Animals Commit Suicide ? Interesting read.
It’s said to be a painful way to attempt suicide.
If you did survive, what where the side effects, ruined liver ? Kidneys ? What ?
I really need to stop taking these until the day I choose. I wake up feeling pretty good and not suicidal. Thats the problem. I need to stay feeling suicidal if I’m gonna get it done. It’s really hard to kill yourself when your not feeling bad, lol.
I took some meds, that I know won’t work as a (Way Out), yet as deeply as I slept they should.
It was nice to wake up, no back pain, totally relaxed.
I just wish they would do the trick, because they were easy to take.
Were’re along way from home, the lyrics are how I feel sometime knowing I’m along way from home. Home being the other side. This is just a side show.
99 luftballons                 Always loved this tune.
Today is the day, that Biscuit has choosen to end his life, I’m hoping that he cahnged his mind.
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