Charlotte

thank god for school wifi. this is horrible. 5 more hours. 5 more hours. 5 more hours.

hey well im still kinda new to this site and I not so sure how to work it properly… any tips?

schools starts tomorrow. it will be a miracle if i get any sleep tonight.

i hate my class

i hate my teachers

i hate my (so called) friends

i hate my cheap school

well, wish me luck.

well, i was at at party the other night (and when i say party, think about a group of people watching movies and eating ice cream, not everybody getting trashed and wrecking a house). well anyway, it was at a friends house who i have known since i was 6, so eight years. she invited a few guys over. one of which she was hoping was going to be her boyfriend.

so we were sitting on the couch and i was sitting near the end. one of the guys came and sat next to me, and then so did my friend and her ‘bf’. my friend told […]

i keep trying to trick myself into being exciteed about school. i keep telling myself to be happy that i am going to see my friends again and learn, and that im not anxious about it.

But then i remember, these people are not my friends. they are just people i follow so im not all alone. and i am not learning. i am scraping by with marks that are only just good enough and taking it one lesson at a time trying to stop myself from screaming or crying or just running away. i hate everything and everyone and no one cares enough to ask […]

i just cant do it anymore. school starts again in two days and  i cant face going back. three more years and then university. i cant handle it anymroe. i just want it all to be over. no where feels safe. i hide in my room for hours, my dad coming in once in a while just to yell.

at least in my room i can cry alone. i cant break down in class.

i feel so fat and ugly and like every time someone laughs they are laughing at my countless imperfections. someone told me to go kill myself the other day. they dont know how […]

i dont know what to do anymore. it like my family doesent even care about me. i waited up for my mum and sister to get home to give them dessert i had spent over an hour making, just to get some sort of thanks, and they turn up with icecreams just for themselves, and said ‘ew’ when i showed then what i had made them. i feel so underappreciated and worthless. i started to get angry and my mum yelled at me to go to bed and she called me an ungrateful *****.

im in my room hyperventilating and crying for the third time today. […]

hi, im new to this site so i dont really know how it goes. i just really need someone to talk to because i feel so alone right now and i cant seem to be able to handle it anymore.

i have been cut free for 3 months. the only person whos knows that i cut is my best friend. or she used to be. she got freaked out when she saw and stopped talking to me. i now have no friends and my family hardly looks at me. my dad makes me feel like i should die just because i didnt manage to finish tidying […]