Yet another NYE spent chronically mentally ill and unstable, friendless, hopeless, angry, self loathing, and suicidal. And I don’t care anymore, I just want to fucking die.
Charlottevics
Hey. I used to frequently post here throughout 2015-16, though I joined around 10 years ago. Is anyone still around from those years?
I’m still suicidal, hence being here once again lol. My mental health is declining and for the last 3 years (since the start of covid) it’s been affecting my physical health too. I’m currently getting migraines (ocular migraines) that I know are caused by my fucked up brain.
Guys everything is just awful. Not even my life but life in general. Everything feels fucked up and the more time goes on the more fucked up it feels.
It feels like everyone around me is depressed and wants to die… my sister and her bf just broke up. He was depressed and said he wanted to die. Then my sister made vague suicidal threats. My own boyfriend does it while drunk too, but pretends to be ok when he is sober and says stuff like “you distract me from the bad thoughts”. My auntie is depressed. She lost her son this year and has made […]
I have no more will to live. I don’t even really care to write about it anymore. I want to but I’m emotionally dead and when I try nothing really comes out. I think it’s because I’ve become so fucking miserable, the majority of the time my mood is as low as 1-3/10, that I don’t feel sad at all about the idea of dying young anymore.
Used to post here a lot in 2015-16. Who is still around from that time?
I’m still depressed/suicidal, even though my life is technically better than back then.
Hey. I used to post here a lot during 2015 and 2016. I’m doubting any of the old members from that time are still here. Hopefully they’re doing better nowadays.
No idea why I’m writing here really. Don’t even know what to say 😀 I feel very different from 2015. Still depressed but no desire to sit here whining about my life like I used to. No point to do so anymore, it’s silly and a waste of time. I found my old posts were so embarrassing I had to delete all of them.
Uh yeah so I guess that’s all I have to say. […]