Clayton Michaels

I’m still facing eviction with nowhere to go.

I pursued a lead on craigslist and it turned out to be a scam.  They wanted me to wire them money and then they send the key and papers in the mail.  Yeah right.

I feel so stupid.  Wasted a week pursuing this lead before they revealed their scheme.  People think because I’m mentally disabled that I’m completely stupid.  It’s hurtful and I’ve grown to resent it.

I don’t know what to do.  I’m pretty much at the bottom of the barrel as far as housing goes.  If I go to another boarding house or worse, a halfway house, I’ll […]

You are screaming and I can’t hear you.

I am screaming and you can’t hear me;

One person in a sea of 8 billion.

Live alone and love your T.V.

I’m surrounded by horrible people and I’m becoming a horrible person.  I’m tired of being abused and losing. I’m tired of trying only to fail.  I’m afraid of the future in my current state, afraid of death, hospitalization, and jail.

I don’t even remember what it’s like to be loved.  People hate me without ever getting to know me and they judge me based on the way I react when I fall into their traps.  I’m tired of being lied to and abused, called names and deliberately bullied.

It’s okay for everybody to mistreat and disrespect me, but when I get pushed over the edge they can […]

Mom and Dad, you were both so screwed up and all that disfunction overflowed from your cup.  Abandoning me at the age of four, I watched my father walk out that door.  Left with a woman so selfish and cold that I don’t even remember her being in my life until I was 8 years old when she married an abusive psychopath that chased us down and in his wrath threatened to kidnap my baby sister.

Fairy tale step parents was what I had, it would been better if I had never had a dad, because I expected him to be there for me, but all […]