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One step forward, ten steps back

by cnic 11/5/2014

written by cnic

I thought I was making progress. I thought I was starting to make friends and not be alone. I thought I was using the resources available for support. Things seemed to be going well.

Then l get a message from someone saying she is upset at my passive aggressive attacks. That alone hurts so much, that isn’t only beyond my social skills but isn’t in my nature. Not only is her being upset upsetting me but then knowing she didn’t know me well enough to assume I could do that. And when I tried to tell her my side of things she kept trying to accuse […]

11/5/2014 2 comments

Hopeless and Alone

by cnic 7/20/2013

written by cnic

I grew up in a family that might have cared but showed in it bad ways, with shaming, yelling, and emotional abuse. I was called wimp, crybaby, and told not to do things because I would break them or mess things up. Even at a young age my parents knew I was a screw up.

My body knew it too, I was so clumsy on my first day of school I ripped open my chin and dented an oven with my head. My bladder knew it to, there wasn’t a year in school I didn’t pee my pants because I didn’t know until seconds before I […]

7/20/2013 1 comment