and by that is, apparently it’s highly rare for anyone to have common sense anymore… Why am I always the only person around anyone I know to have the common sense to think something through, to see the solutions to do what’s right, but no one listens to me… In this world full of lies, and currupted greedy bastards, I still stay truthful and pure… In this world, all those horrible people continue to get rewarded, while I’ve never seen a day where I’m not punished… for what? for existing? for being right? for being honest? for being hard working? for having humanity?! all the […]
If you don’t know the short story, look it up…
I’m always alone, or left alone, the people that supposedly care about me, do absolutely nothing to stop this pain. I’m always told to move on with life. WHAT LIFE? I have nothing left, no way to continue education or getting a job, my credit was completely destroyed by my own school, and my education opportunity completely destroyed by my ex. They take everything from me, but I’m not allowed to be angry, or depressed?! They steal money and people’s lives, and I’m not allowed to do anything to fight back? Why do they get rewarded […]
I’d rather be raped again, than to be associated with this ungrateful world, at least while I’m being raped, I know that someone actually wanted ‘me’…
Went to BF’s work to recharge computers, hung out with Best Friend and watched “How to Train Your Dragon,” awesome movie btw. Came back to finish cleaning stuff up, had some Ramen, had one can of Cherry Coke today, which is a shock even to me. and mostly been doing nothing.
so ummm… hung out with Best Friend, went with BF and people to play kickball.. I can’t play for crap, Kickball became dodge ball, so that was definitely out of the question for me. um, didn’t do much until I finished eating to do some exercises for the upcoming competition for wrestling company… so yeah…
http://suicideproject.org/2011/04/day-ten-strike-report/ (has all the other links thus far).
I’ve become extremely bored. But I want to get into the Extreme Coupon theme I’ve seen. BF ordered Pizza, I had fruit and burritos, and other foods today, of coarse my beloved Cherry Coke, how can I deny that pleasure?
http://suicideproject.org/2011/03/where-to-begin/
http://suicideproject.org/2011/04/where-will-it-end/
http://suicideproject.org/2011/04/tonight-i-start-my-protest/
http://suicideproject.org/2011/04/first-day-strike-report/
http://suicideproject.org/2011/04/day-two-strike-report/
http://suicideproject.org/2011/04/day-three-strike-report/
http://suicideproject.org/2011/04/day-four-strike-report/
http://suicideproject.org/2011/04/29796/
http://suicideproject.org/2011/04/day-six-strike-report/
http://suicideproject.org/2011/04/day-seven-strike-report/
So um, yeah, what did I do today? Woke up to BF leaving the house, then woke up to Best Friend showing up, T.V. was on, spent some time with Best Friend, then I remember something about driving about in the rental car, and 1000 ways to die, and fell asleep… pretty much slept since. so yeah, this was an extremely boring day.
Woke up early, went with BF to his work, was planning to hang with someone but that gotten changed because of other issues, (weather and plans I think.) hung around at BF’s work longer than I thought we would because he had to wait for stuffs. Went out and about to phone places (on the way back home), and we went to Kroger to shop for some food, for once I didn’t break the bank. LOL Had two bean/cheese burritos, was so hungry, even after having a double cheese burger, and oh yeah, I had my own version of spaghetti minus sauce and add […]
Wow, I think this was the most free day I’ve spent on this entire strike. mostly because I was at XSU for most of the day. Had a great time, nervous as hell for my part, but many have told me I did great, and I’ve gain more fan base, so I’m told, we’ll see soon enough. I charged my net-book at that hall because it was available to do so. I had some Campbell’s soup today, and some fruit and of course my life supply of cherry coke, we all know I can’t live without those acids eroding my life. LOL or and a […]
I feel like all I’ve done lately is wake up, eat and sleep lately. It’s somewhat depressing, but at the same time, it’s not like I’m not loved or needed/wanted. BF keeps me company when he can, and I just feel it’s all worth it. Sometimes though, I just don’t feel like doing anything but sleeping. Today I’ve had an issue where it feels like my right rib is all bruised, but I didn’t do anything to hurt the area, so I’m a bit confused on that. While BF was out most of the night, I pretty much just slept, I could of hopped […]
hmmm, I’m actually finding it harder and harder to remember what I’ve done during these days. I know I wake up, I know I at least eat something, today I know I went to BF’s work to recharge my computers, and use his phone for internet access, woot. I should recharge my emergency phone sometime soon. I did have “chicken in a box” when we had returned, later than expected, ate around 5ish to about 5:30ish. I also helped BF with some XSU stuffs, mostly cutting out letters from poster boards. He put on “1000 ways to die” on the comp, and we watch the […]
Is there an admin on this site, or anyone that can be contacted to report people who abuse the posts, and what not? I mean, there are just some people that just shouldn’t be on here, and furthermore, those stupid ads… just so dumb.
I woke up briefly to BF on his way out to turn in some paperwork. Hopped on his comp he offered for a bit to play a small amount of Farm Country, I logged off earlier than expected due to boredom yet again, but prior to doing so, I’ve told him I would scan his computer one of these days so I set the scanners in motion.
I went back to sleep for a small nap. BF then later came back around 11ish with some bad news, but that’s their news. Both BF and I took another nap because of how early we’ve woken up. […]
Woke up earlier than usual, hung out with BF for a bit, ate some applesauce, went to his work to go charge my three laptops to find there was no internet access there…. So I’m planning on library, Friday. Anyway, that was 4 hours of almost complete bordem, just talked to BF’s Friend most of the time, and played either minecraft or mahjong on the laptop that had them. Dropped off at Kroger to turn in $17.70 in cans/bottles, and walked home. Sat around with BF, his friend and another friend until BF, the other friend, and and BF’s Cousin left do go shoot a […]
Well, kinda woke up early watched some vids with BF that he loaded, he gotten me some food. Took another nap, woke up again to BF stating it was too quiet. LOL He turned on the TV to Law and Order. After a while, he offered his comp, while he played on his PlayStation. Made myself some ramen and rice. Nothing too productive today. LOL
woke up, in a good mood, cleaned the room, used as little electricity as soon as I realized what day it was. I messed up twice. opps. Anyway, had a small meal today. so limited my food intake. Checked my blood pressure, 102 over 76, is normal apparently, and my pulse rate is normal for my age, 82. Had to help John restore his computer to get his internet to work. my main laptop is out of battery, the next laptop, I don’t ever plan to use again, it just as issues, so I’m on my netbook. I was HOPING to walk up to the […]
I’ll be placing an ad in the free press soon, when I figure out a way to word it to a min. if anyone doesn’t know, I’m going on strike against “life”, basically, the government denies our right to live by taking away all opportunities of real help when we ask for it. Not just for severe depression but for other illnesses too. I’m going to live based on survival only, if I have to pay for it, I’m not doing it, (except food and hygeine, they are a nessicaty). If anyone wants to particpate, they can in their own way, just mention it here […]
My first post on here, I was shocked to find people could even comment, more shocked to find that people saw me as an inspiration to live/fight for their right to live. When I post that, I was in a dark place, my boyfriend had said something he never should have said, that was to live with my abusive mother that would of guaranteed death one way or another, hers, mine, hell what if My dad had a heart attack again for all the fighting going on… death would surely occur no matter how you looked at it, murder or suicide. You never tell someone […]
I’m warning you now, this might as well be a novel. It’s literally 25 years of pain and suffering since the day I was born. I don’t even think anyone would want to take the time out of their day to even read every horror story I can give. Worse… I hate feeling like people don’t believe me, that I’m just looking for attention… They think that after everything it’s all too much, “how could everything possibly bad happen to this person, she must be lying!”
I hate this world, and it’s judgements, and it’s false hopes, and all of it’s preachings that no one follows. […]