See- prom is coming up. Every year I go to prom with my friends and I have a great time. I don’t think this year will be fun. I’ve got a stressed head thinking about my final grades, college programming, summer job possibilities, dealing with family (cancer patients, old with broken bones, trying to live my life for me), and the person I love and whether or not we are going to get back together. If this were a movie, then I would exit prom drunk and happy with my friends and when he tried to take me back, I would either throw up on […]
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cooleo99catsmart
I first considered suicide when I was in third grade. My parents were getting a divorce and not really speaking to each other. (I never remember them being together, so I never figured that this was the reason why I was thinking these things.) I've always been really smart and mature for my age. And as Emilie Autumn says, "Intelligent girls are more depressed because they know the world." 6th grade I was REALLY depressed because the person that I was in love with had moved away. She was my best friend and after that I felt as if I couldn't have friends or best friends or boyfriend/girlfriends. 10th grade I was also a bit depressed, but learned to survive through it. This year, 11th grade, has been really tough. I have had more suicidal thoughts than ever. I've also resorted to drinking, cutting, and stealing to help me feel better. I just felt way too much pressure from the stress of taking Calculus. Also, it didn't help that my boyfriend was doing stuff like that as well.