I want to live and die at the same time. It is so hard to have these two thoughts in my head at the same time because they are complete opposite things. I will imagine killing myself and how great it would be for me, and then I’ll remember that I have other people I have to consider. That if I would die my family would be devastated. That’s not me being vain, that’s me acknowledging that I do have people who love me. Death is seen as a tragedy, and if I killed myself I would knowingly and deliberately ruin people’s lives. That is […]