Is it really too much? The things I ask for?
All that is wanted is a few luxuries in life… None of then are even material.
Is it too much to ask to follow a decent schedule? One that doesn’t change so drastically?
Is it too much to ask for, a job I don’t mind?
Is it too much to ask when I desire happiness?
Can there be a day I wake up, happier then anything.
A day in which worries are little.
Can I smile at the sun and defeat the day?
Can I lay comfortably in my bed and sleep peacefully?
Is it too much to ask for a little guidance.
I feel […]
I don’t even know why I bother anymore. Honestly. I’m so miserable with life that I’m losing the will to fight. I don’t know what to do with college. I still live with my parents (21). I have a shitty paying job. Apartments are scarce. I smoke to relieve the stress life causes me. I can hardly sleep. Dreams avoid me. I lack skills. Talents. Hopes. Dreams. Wishes. I’m nothing but a waste of flesh. I feel like a useless creation. Everyone thinks I am capable of achieving great things. I don’t see it. It evades me. I feel like I have no reason to […]
**This is a jumbled up mess…**
Ever wonder why you bother? I always do. I find nothing in life that is worth fighting for. I feel lost and alone. But I know I’m not. My family, friends, and girlfriend love me very much. It has been them that has kept me from following through with my dark thoughts. I’m writing here today because I made a pact with myself before I started college. If I could no go through with it, then I have nothing left to offer. I told myself it’s over once I get that email, letter, talking too. People saying you failed! Why bother?
It happened.
Now […]