no matter what I seem to do, I just keep living the same kind of life over and over and over again. Same company, different job there, things are better. Get a cat, feel better, get a girlfriend, feel better. Parents aren’t so depressed or visibly disappointed in me that I haven’t gotten married or bought a house, had a different job in a decade. Girlfriend gets cold feet, says she has self identity issues, feels anxious and shitty all the time, we break up. I feel like everything repeats, nothing meaningfully changes, nothing feels worth doing anymore. I feel like I am fundamentally incapable […]