im sitting here and its past mid night
regretting ever little thing that happened in life
you cant take back the hands of time
the situations fit the crime
you got to move on
but moving is hard
since you concede your self to living in the dark
ive got no reason to be happy, or sad
i live my days always mad
mad at what? i don’t fucking know
i think sometimes its all for show
you have to feel something deep inside
so why not get pissed? its not easy to hide
then people will think your real,
people will think you feel
People come and go in life
but it still hurts when you walked away tonight
i never meant the words that i said
i should never have left so much unsaid
the words never left, the lips depart
and all i do is go back to start
you cannot pass go when time is to slow
the heart string attached to what is sold
i meant ever positive thing that i said
and negative is whats stuck in your head
takes months to build, and seconds to destroy
i am empty like a rag doll, a forgotten toy
chewed me up and sanded me down
this is where i put words left safe, unsound
i didn’t mean it, i […]
So Lauren came to me about a week ago, and asked me *is the brain a product of the mind, or the mind the product of the brain*
and automatically my response was *the mind a product of the brain* why? because the mind would not exist without the brain. the brain is a storage for memory, which can contribute to how the mind process and projects information. there are several parts of the brain that control emotion, danger reaction. memory, visual and auditory aid. but the question *where is the mind in the brain* has baffled even the most brilliant minds of all time.                           […]
hey i know i said i was leaving the project, but idk i guess i cant yet, i like to write.
just how i feel of whatever’s on my mind and this is really the only place i can where people understand. so i guess i never left
Okay im sorry but i really dont see the point staying on this sight anymore, i know its a good place to rant and shit. but i dont want to succumb you to my melo-drama. i really have no reason to be depressed anymore, i just need to grow up and move on. Goodbye guys, it was cool while it lasted i guess. i made some *friends* on chat.i had the opportunity to learn a few peoples stories and some thing to occupy my time, so to you i also say goodbye
we have to much destruction and crime on the streets
welcome to america the land of the free
but what if that fact is the fact of what has you beat?
you have no where to go and nothing you need
the laws the law is what they always said
but what use is it to you when your already dead?
no sense in living a life that you cant already live
abuse and neglect that is all that can give
moma says she loves you, shes just fucked in the head
no sense running to daddy, cause daddy already left
out the front door […]
sometimes the bridge is to high, but you take the leap any way
i know longer feel anything. i do believe i can be that shadow, but this is different whether i pass through or linger no longer matters, nothing affects me. i can be hurt or do the hurting and it would be no different. the thing is i still feel sad though, its like a mosquito always buzzing, more annoying then anything, but its there. i don’t feel angry anymore its like there is no point so im mute face or sad, ha wonderful. people told me it was to late to pass through life because i already touched so many peoples lives, but im easy […]
I never know the right thing to say,
i never know when not to walk away
i cant ever cope or ever feel,
i want to find out what it means to be real
i could never be good, i cant ever be perfect
i wont ever know what it truly means to be worth it
ive took up space, and wasted to much
im the least valued in your valuable stuff
i was once your great accessory
now im a broken memory
im faded and old,im broken when new
im everything u ever wanted to use.
tossed in the trash, on the way out
the last straw, the last straw that burned down the house
im tired and […]
I manage to log into my second Facebook account every other day, in hopes that my mom wrote me back. She does sometimes. but most of the time i have to wait for days before she writes me.
i don’t know why i try so hard, she never wanted me in the first place. she used to tell me she wished she had gotten an abortion, and some how i always manage to over look that. but today im just so so so far down in the rut i started realizing that this is what my potential life will be like. i cant manage to do […]
i want to be like a shadow. passing through life not touching anything. experiencing everything. i dont want or need anything (okay thats a lie) but that is how i feel sometimes though. i want to become like a shadow no definition no identity. just a thing that once was. i want to be the back drop of dreams  i want to just be. i wish to be of one mind, connecting to countless identities. i want to feel. i want to be loved and to love. i want to feel compassion.i want to just be
i laugh when i am sad,
i hurt when i am mad
i scream when i cant take it
i drop when i cant make it
i stand when i am strong
and rush the day along
because soon i will collapse
and cave in all the traps
im not really good at life
its an endless endless strife
so take it all away
i cant make the day
when all is good in well
i dont stand a chance in hell
but i am only human
the words that destroy men
i can laugh when i am happy
and smile through the misery
this cant last forever
or ill severe the end-ever
i have my goods and bads
my moments of happy and sads
i am […]
So i dont like to follow typical cliques, im writing a story. but i want most of it to be based of science and fact.
i have included several mythical entities in it and now i have to find a scientific way to explain there happening
like for vampirism, i want it explained like a blood desease, almost like there body cant regerate blood cels on there own so they have to steal others and ect..
please give me your thoughts on the matter.
ShattereGlass
okay to answer some questions, i got ride of my old posts because they just didnt seem like me, anymore.
so now im going to post stuff on here that interests me and peaks curiosity. participate if you want. and since not many ppl veiw my posts i guess i wont get to much flack over it. okay..
ShatteredGlass
i cut just to know i feel
i cut because its so surreal
i cut just to know im here
i cut because i belong no where
i cut to cover all my lies
i cut to stay trapped in this time
the pain its just so enticing
im not living unless im slice
all the sins that cover me
it blocks out the sun its smothering
i cut just to stay alive
i cut because i know i cant hide
behind the walls and painted glass
take your hope and shove up your ass
i cant live on bible talk
im a rebel and i know i rock
so i cut just to breath the air
that is granted just because […]
im attracted to your body heat
when we touch its like the first time that we meet
and when you speak its so soft and sweet
it pulls me in like a melody
and know when we kiss its not good bye
i ill be here lost in time
because…
i cant survive with out you
know this girl i will never doubt you
your word is born and it means to me
all the things that are in my dreams
im lost in the static sound
it pulls me in and i touch the ground
no more wandering
lost and thought and its so haunting
because everything that i wanted
is all the things that you flaunted
ill kiss and hold […]
you know that life is like a ticking clock nobody knows when its gonna stop before im gone i need to touch someone with a word with a kiss with a decent song
and it gets lonely when you live out loud when the truth that you seek isnt in this crowd you better find your voice better make it loud we gotta burn like fire or we’ll just burn out
*** *** dolls rebel love song.
Man, it’s been a long day
Stuck thinking ’bout it driving on the freeway
Wondering if I really tried everything I could
Not knowing if I should try a little […]
hit me if you think it hurts
beat me if you think it works
ill be here when your done
and you’ll be where you passed out drunk
life continues it never ends
unless you take it with your own hands
is it ever a reason good enough
to walk away and throw your hands up
no one will ever understand
because your alone the last man to stand
please give me one reason just to go on
because in reality this is no fun
loneliness is my curse
if you get close ill hurt you worse
i don’t mean to be who i am
im […]
i am sick of being used, i am sick of feeling played and unwanted. i dont want to be led on, but im never the control of the leash. what is better about he/her/them? what the fuck do people see/not see i mean really i have to know. But fuck you, fuck you fuck you, okay? fuck you.. i dont know. i hate how i feel sometimes. i have no one to turn to, i have no one to talk to. eventually people get bored or whatever and just stop talking to me so, whatever. i guess in reality im pathetic. im really just running […]
flashing back into reality
stomped out by the gravity
every situation ways
more or less its all the same
days go by, time flys by
its a repeated cycle
cant never break the cycle
same shit different day
thats the way it always plays
whats one place from another
wheres the love my hateful brother?
i thought i could be made
if only i played the game
i played it to the end
where i learned you never can win
play to be played and stay to be stayed
who stills the hand and bares the water?
where the love in ever after?
what must be done to change the tide?
to turn back the clock and take the time
no one knows but everyone […]