Never in my 18 years of this miserable life have I ever wanted to kill myself this much
I set myself limits “if you can make it to then you can make it” but recently I’ve never been this depressed . I just want to end all of this , I’m no good at anything , even my own parents thinks the worst of me so what’s the point anymore
3 failed over dose attempts, i tried again last night,
just feel so empty and lost,
without my only support (my nan)
who passed away about a year ago
now the time is nearing and its getting me down
having arguments with people whom i care about just adds to the pile of crap which seems to be my life.
ive never want to cut so much in my life,
to feel that cool red liquid pour out of a fresh cut,
to feel that moment of relief,
to see the blood give in,
to see the blood turn to scabs then the scabs to scars,
its the best way to cope,
the only way i know,
because im sick of living this life,
tired of who i am
so i finally thought i overcame everything, but lately i felt the need to cut, i have cut out of desperation
i had an argument with a friend causing me and my partner to break up and causing her to break up with my friend,
things were said people where hurt and it hit me… i already felt dead inside… thoughts in my head “this is what you done, its your fault, your no good , everyone better of not knowing you” ect … so i went downstairs got a box of pills and took 24 paracetamols hoping id never wake up…
but here i am …. the […]
It’s 1:30 am my family are asleep …
I get the blade and slit my wrists
They don’t know
While I sleep my arm is sceamimg out as the shimmering blood flows
Just kill me now and be done with it I want to die now
What’s the point of life ?? …. If we where only ment to suffer
I have 8 scars on my arm 19 on the other
I get stared at as I walk down the corridor
No I’m not a emo Im just depressed and sick of this life
Because of people that are not even worth talking about
My mum is herself upset Because my dad left my two brothers are too cool foe me to even talk to and my to twin sisters are both stunners golden blond hair bright big blue eyes Then me stuck in the middle the odd one out dark brown hair too weird to be known as part of this perfect family so […]
While my ex friends ***** about me nt realising I’m standing behind them then won’t admit it, I feel betrayed loney lost so when I go home thinking it’ll be fine I have arguments and I go to my room I get the knife a slice my arm … It doesn’t hurt it feels nice to get away from everyone . Then I go to school the next day people see them then they try apologising to me ha they can go screw themselves I don’t care it doesn’t hurt
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