Since my mental condition got really bad,I live like a prisoner.I am not behind bars ,but I lead such a limited life.I cannot even drive a car or go to a bank to withdraw some money from my bank account.I can’t even buy a mobile phone or have my mobile phone repaired.I have become a really isolated disabled recluse whose life is really painful.I have only one friend ,but I think I’m losing him too.Because I no longer enjoy being with him.Maybe that’s because he’s not mentally ill.He is normal.His life is not limited or boring ,and he expects to have a bright future.I have […]
I am all alone in this mysterious world.I know almost nothing about my life,myself or the world around me.I’m really lost in the darkness of my great ignorance.I don’t know much about myself either.I can’t understand the workings of my own mind.It seems as though I am myself part of the mystery of existence and life.I am so helpless and lonely.The god of this enigmatic universe manipulates and controls all aspects of my life.He controls the innermost parts of my mind.I’m like a toy in his powerful hands.And death is getting closer and closer to me.My life smells of death.My body is so mortal that […]
Life the hound
the equivocal
comes to me at a bound
either to rend me
or to befriend me
I don’t know his intentions
till he jumps at my bare hand
with teeth or tongue
meanwhile I wait for the event
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I like this poem,because it expresses my feelings of anxiety
and apprehension.I just wish I knew the poet who made it.
I am basically a very anxious person.It’s like I am always expecting something terrrible to happen.My shrink says that I suffer from Obsessive compulsive disorder.Anxiety hurts me a lot and I sometimes feel that I really need to die in order to end this terrible miserable life.I really feel the end is near.