I am all alone in this mysterious world.I know almost nothing about my life,myself or the world around me.I’m really lost in the darkness of my great ignorance.I don’t know much about myself either.I can’t understand the workings of my own mind.It seems as though I am myself part of the mystery of existence and life.I am so helpless and lonely.The god of this enigmatic universe manipulates and controls all aspects of my life.He controls the innermost parts of my mind.I’m like a toy in his powerful hands.And death is getting closer and closer to me.My life smells of death.My body is so mortal that I can almost feel its gradual decay.Soon my death is going to change my life.(It will probably destroy it completely or maybe there is some kind of life after death???)
When death comes,I will embrace it,because I hope that it will rid me of all the pain,all the suffering ,all the anxiety and all the discomfort that I have to endure on a daily basis.I need death so badly.
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Hello deathappeal….have we me before???/….if so i apologize
it you’re new here…..then welcome
quick background….7 suicide attempts…..7 NDE’s….aspergers….anxiety disorder….depressive disorder….many personality disorders….chronic pain caused by past abuse and also severe osteo
been diagnosed with every auto-immune disease known to mankind….with the exception of the big one….cancer
first attempt at the age of 4….now 50 and unfortunately totally sane….lol
do you know when the anxiety started for example…..other than that i will shut up and listen …..for a change….sense some urgency here….hope i’m wrong….but if comfortable…..start ranting,talking,asking…..whatever….if not…..stick around….lots of smarter, friendlier folks on this site than me
in the end it’s all good…..and you are safe here
Namaste
Hi,
We’ve met before.I’m the guy who is obsessive compulsive and suffers from a lot of anxiety.
sorry deathappeal…..i was in my own hell for most of the last 4 months….better now thanks to everyone here…..but the description….well that just about describes most of us here…lol…so again when did the anxiety first appear….or become a problem….for me it happened in a church when i was 5.
Namaste
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