my body shakes and i cry. he didnt deserve the way i treated him, i hurt everyone around me. i push people awy but he never left he always stayed by my side untill the day i broke him. I’ve never seen so much pain on someones face, and im just now getting upset over it. all it took was one look at his photo and i completely lost it. it doesnt help that i see him almost everyday. my chest hurts, everything hurts.
the scars that you see
they are all made by me
and my tears have turn red
with the blood that ive shed
people think im lost to the madness
but really im just cloaked in sadness
i could use a rope or i could use a knife
i see the pain and i see the hurt
i feel my heart begin to burst
why cant they see
that my life
ive been afraid of
me
Suicide
it seems so easy
no more pain
just one little step
and your life becomes in vain
it’s just so tempting
no more sarrow
a couple of pils
and no tomorrow
it seems about right
no more suffering
just one little cut
and no more fighting
its just so soothing
no more contest
just one quick shot
and your finally at rest
just jump off the bridge
across the river of life
lights out forever blind
but what of the hurt
of those you leave behind
She sat alone,
alone and at home,
where her screams were silent,
but her mind was violent.
Her insecurities hid deep inside,
and they indeed eat her alive,
a tear rolled down her face,
as her heart begin to race.
She took her blade and tore her skin,
where her depression lies deep within,
this went on my days, months, years,
and untill she cried her very last tears,
she decided she had enough,
the world around her was much to tough.
She took a gun to her head,
congradalations society,
she is dead.
anyone want to have a converstion? we can talk about anything
just sitting here in my room as i hear my stepp father scream and threaten my little sister. normal days are usually my older and younger sister yelling at each other while my parents argue too. my walls arent thick enough to muffle there voices. i sit here and think most of the day not really living if you ask me. im a big fuck up wasnt even supposed to be born. sorry for the shitty spellling.
i drove up to okc because my step mother and dad are getting married and brittany’s (step mom) dad offered to give her 2 grand for a dress. we found a dress after playing cat and mice with her dad for the money. we couldnt pay for the dress becase her father lied about giving her money he offered. brittany works hard for everything she has never asked her father for shit and always looked after him. we stoped at 7-eleven and her father pulled up drinking and driving gonna get a DUI. my step sister is making a scene about it almost fighting him. […]
anyone want to talk?
i wish i could get hit by a car. if i die then then great but if not i could get a clue to see who actuallly cares. ive had so many fake friends that ive completely gave up on being social. i avoid talking to anyone at all costs. my dad calls me anti social in a joking matter but its true i guess.
*this poem is in a book i read its called wattpad love i wanted to share it*
The Girl and the Shark
Once upon a time, in the middle of the
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its all my fault… hes at his breaking point and im sure hes goig to leave. tired of my bullshit. i got upset over the past trust is gone. heart is caving in knowing he must be dying. all my fault… he has a rage he cant control and might hurt himself or someone else. i always hurt the people around me. im a fuck up. now hes hurting and i cant fix it. all my fault… promised him i wouldnt cut and almost broke it. my fault… we’re both hurting becase i was being childish.ill take every hit from everyone who has hurt because […]
i dont know what to do anymore
so lost.tired.broken. nothing to describe how im feeling really. i want to sleep forever it seems like my whole future has gone out the window. so tired and restless but i have to figure ths shit out i might be over dramatic but oh well. ig i cant say that or id be a hypocrite haha..
im so numb cant feel anything other then the warm tears i cry.
paralyzed as my chest felt heavy i saw him after 2 months. i wasnt in good mood but i wanted him to see me becase i knew if he did we would both smile but that never happened. feeling guilty because i have a bf but he always crawls his way into my heart. he’s mysterious, dark, and is beautiful while my bf is dark, sarcastic, and also beautiful. they both make me smile and laugh at my worst times and are both there for me. (no joke this feels like some twilight bullshit.)
the truth is we’re all suicidal people telling other suicidal people its okay when we all know its not. sorry if its offensive in anyway to you but im tired of the bullshit.
i cant speak. everytime someone trys to get me to talk about my feelings i choke on my words. I’ve always kept my emotions in i guess i got used to not talking about them. someties its just random things like about my day or whatever its hard. i start to breath heavily and i get scared then wont say anything. my best friend ariana gets mad when i do that but i cant help it!
im starting school on friday and im nervous. im going into 7th grade im so worried about keeping my grades im not sure if i can. i got into language arts honors dont know how im not that smart. since im going into the 7th grade im going to be in the basement or the dungeon people call it. we have some lockers up the stairs in the 8th grade hallway im hoping i dont get one of those lockers so i dont have to run up and down the stairs to get to classes.
Yet again, I can’t trust anyone. My “friend” left me last night cause I told her what I trully was. She said she can’t be friends with someone who’s depressed and stopped talking to me all together. I just feel like shutting myself from the world and go mute. I’ll just talk in sigh language when I have to.just completely shut myself from the world and hopefully die before I’m 20 🙁
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