Well its finally come down to it I’m either going to end it all in the most lethal and consequently probably most painful method possible today or I’m going to go the hospital and go back to the psych ward to try to get some help tomorrow. Honestly I’d rather end it because I doubt getting help will really work but getting myself to use a means like that is really difficult
Well I’m planning to end my life in the next day or so because I just can’t take it any more. I’m not really sure why I’m even posting this but I feel someone should know how I feel at least. Things have been terrible for me since my mother’s death last March.
I’m 28 but because of severe anxiety and other issues have never had a job and thus have no money of my own so I’m stuck living with my father who I hat for many reasons and have hated for about 20 years. Not the least of these reasons is that he cheated on my mother who I was very close to and they were recently divorced when she died
I’ve already tried three times to kill myself and told my father how hopeless I feel about things and his only response is that he would prefer that I not kill myself but if that’s what I want I should do it.
I personally consider myself a writer and have started several books and have ideas for other that I feel could possibly one day be published but I just can’t keep living so alone with no one who cares