I haven’t stopped crying in hours. I am in my late twenties with a child but have been ill 17 years with complex PTSD. I cannot do this anymore. But yet I am terrified because I don’t want to leave my child. Equally I can’t do this.
I know I should just get on with it. I have the means. Why am I freaking out now after all the preparation? I am truly pathetic even when trying to leave.
My child is elsewhere, safe and looked after <3