Dezhael

I’ve been doing some thinking since my post yesterday… how does one move on and better their life when anything they try to do blows up in front of them? No matter how I try to fix things, no matter what I try to change or do I always seem to end up back here. It’s like I’m wandering in a dark forest, yet no matter how far I go in a direction I never seem to find a field. Like I’m searching for a single ray in a moonless night.

Sometimes, it feels like the best option I have is to […]

I just don’t know what to do anymore. No matter what I try to do, either my social fears or my own lack of confidence conspires to ruin my plans. I can’t drive, I get paranoid of crashes. I can’t get a job, no one will hire me due to my lack of work history and my nervousness during the interview (on the rare circumstance that I get one). No matter what I try to do, it always seems to fail in the end.

Maybe that old quote I read is right, perhaps my only purpose is to serve as a warning […]