I feel as though im stuck in a long tunnel and i see the light but everytime i try to run to it i trip over something and it taakes me along time to get back up idddk though this is just a thought/ simile to my life
For those who seen my pic yesterday am i ugly because that what everyone call me and ive been feeling that im ugly since i knew what that word mean
I really shiuld start taking my own advice i mean i give other people resons why they deserve to live but i tell myself all the reasons to die
Okay so my second doctor that i had told me that i had psycosis. Because i told here that i wasnt depressed but just fed up with the bullshit.am i really crazy
Okay so idk if somethings really wrong with the way i.look or ifi just naturaly look depressed but i was having a good time laughing and joking and one of my friends out of the blue said why do you look so.depressed were supose to be having fun and i said i am having fun dont you.see me laughing the.he.said yeah but right after you get done laughing youu get this look on your face like your about.to cry or.something i sat there for a moment then left out the room crying.they all asked why i was crying and i wouldnt tell them […]
Sometimesi can really feel lile im not wort the air i breath or the space i take up on this earth theres someone out there who want a life like mies way more then i do.i cant even stand to wake up every morning i always wish that like something bad happenexd over night and i didnt here of feel nothing but im dead.see when i die i dont want to suffer before i go i want a quick and painless death lile getting shot lin the heado or jumping off a 200 floor building
I go see my therapist tomorrow i.realy like her she nice and understanding and is one person.to judge me i cant wait to go get some of this stuff off my chest
I hate living i wish that my mom.would just let me die already ive been suffering for years now and she seems not to care she avoids the situation until i try something then thats when she notice i need more help then what shes giving.but the truth is i dont want.anyones help i just want to be left aline so that i could just die by myself what so hard about that you know i prayed and prayed that this world would end in 2012 like is was supose to but i guess i didnt prey hard enough because here i am writing […]
I feel like im in this all by myself.no one cares about me im like so close to take these pills that i have hiden in my purse i cant do this i just need to get out of here i just feel like dieing i cant stop crying i dont want to hurt my mom but then again im hurting myself just staying here what should i do i just feel so lodt and alone in this world
Tears streaming down my fave my hands shake as i pick up the cigaret from the ashtray.i have all these differentt thoughts running threw my mind do i deserve to die or is that just the devil inside.i gt up tears coming harder because i know what im about to do.i race toy room, nothing can stop me from what iam about to do.i look for my pills there they are right on the dresser as they were before.i open them up and count them out loud,theres only fifty but im about to swallow them down,im done i did it now i have […]
Okay so most of you guys see me posting storys of how i hate living but not really knowing why.well here you go starting when i was in kindegarden i got picked on in school but from there all the way up to 6it was only about my hair and clothes i was also sexualy abised by 3of my cousins and there dad.then when i got to middle school i got made fun of because everything my weight my hair clothes where i live how i looked etc.since 8th grade ive tried to kill myself over 50 times ive been in and out […]
I cant keep going threw this life pretending lke its not killing me just to be here, i cry everytime i get some alone time because it hurts me so bad to know that im hurting, this place is like hell you.know they say misery loves company andim the first on its guest list,evrything i so i feel like i failed at i cant do anything right.i juust want to be dead
I feel as though i just drift threw life no feelings no nothing.I dont even thimk im me anymore.i dont feel as though im here i feel like like nothing is real.theres no point in being here if i cant feel anything anymore.gosh i just want to say f it and kill myself.thres nothing to live for anyway
I cant put into words how much i hate living.life really suck.nobody likes me,me friends dont get me and i feel so alone in this world i always wake.and wonder whats the point in life.I ask everyday why do god wake me why must i suffer eberyday.i blame myself for this deep depression if i had just ended my life the first time i wouldnt feel this way.its hard living this life
Okay so i just cant stop watchng cyberbulpy i just wish i could stand up to the bullys at my school the way they. But if i did id just get bullyed more
Sonetimes i wonder why i still have to be here.you know my therapist tell me im lucky to have people who love me.but sometimes i wish i didnt so that i wouldnt feel so bad about trying to get out of here.
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