She’s happy. That’s all I ever wanted. She’s happy it’s all I ever needed. All she’s given. All she’s endured. It’s everything she deserves. I couldn’t do it and she swears I will… One day. One day. Someday. i have faith in myself. But… It’s not that simple now that he’s here now that someone is taking her all days now that someone has her hand making his way to her heart. Slowly steadily he walks a trail that I worked hard to pave just for me. Walking through doors I bled to open and walls I cried and sacrificed to tear down. Building a […]
Y can’t I stop crying. Y can’t I stop hurting. Thoughts of you flood my mind while his touch caresses your body. Always said I’d never feel this way for a girl. But look what you’ve done broken me down. You tell me it’s to build me up. You tell me it’s to make me stronger. But I don’t believe it. I tried I did but I can’t. I only want you. But I never had you. And now he does. You showed me this journey and I knew it’d be hard. But I never expected you’d make me do it alone. Now with no […]
I put the gun in my mouth. I count to five. Each second goes by like hours in a day. 4 I flash thru memories those that were good those that were bad 3 a strange calm washes over me like it’s already over. 2my body tenses once more before it goes limp forever 1 it’s time my heart beat gets bigger. I pull the trigger… I’m still here the gun didn’t go off. What’s this mean. I try again nothing each click teasing and taunting one more second I get taunted by life. I can’t even die. Fuck
Tired of everything being my fault seriously everything wrong in this relationship is my fucking fault there isn’t anything I can do right. I stopped caring awhile ago according everyone around me. They are right it’s all that’s worked for me. It’s what I know now. How do I change who I am? Do I even wanna change who I am? Not really I kinda like me for once. I know I can be an ass but I’m also pretty awesome. I’m such an ass cuz I feel so jaded. I feel like I’ve been held back and pinned down I want freedom and independence. […]
Your just a snake in the grass I’m just a hunter set to destroy your world,hide all you want cause I’ll burn it all to the ground. Watch your tongue and the lies it spouts. When I’m done with you,there’ll be nothing left but your skin on my belt. You could never match me that’s why your in that hole while I stand above you, looking down with a smile on my face. Heh heh let’s make it rain! Step up so I can knock you back down This is what it sounds like…
When — you–die
Pick me up off the ground
Forgive me for what I’ve […]
When I’m gone let my love carry on
Give it wings and let it fly
Help it change lives
I’ve given my all and have nothing left to give.
I’ve no regrets my only fault was not fighting hard enough
And holding on too loosely
Now I’m lost these demons have taken hold
They’re dragging me down into this hell of my own soul
Fuck I can’t get away
When I’m gone let my love carry on
Give it wings and let it fly
Help it change lives
I’ve given my all and have nothing left to give.
I’m alive ! It’s the biggest lie I’ve ever told myself! I died but I say I’m alive!
I’ve taken my […]
What’s life when you live it alone? Lost with no home. Call but nobody picks up the phone. The ones you’ve loved have left. They say they did it to help you so how’s that make sense? So now your against the fence. What do you do keep moving on hoping it gets better. But it so much easier to let it all go just to let all fall. Fuck it just let it hang out. Take those pills smoke that shit drink down till it’s all gone. And when the bottle is empty so is ur mind u can escape this time even if […]