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I cant take it anymore
I have nothing left
People say i have talent
People say i have something to live for
That I’m smart
People dont realise i can’t live up to their expectations and call me a failure when i say it. No i cant go to oxford. No i cant go to Durham.
Im tired of the hatred and the rumours and the name calling

Im tired of having to cover up in bandages to hide the scars, tired of nobody understanding why, tired of pushing people who care away from me, tired of causing pain to everyone i meet and im tired […]

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Just some thoughts as the end draws near

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When you listen to the old philosophers they all agree that the human mind is a thing of beauty and interest. For some people on the earth that still rings true, but for people like me and im guessing people like you this is bullshit. The human mind is terrifying. Yeah sure it can let some people work out a complex maths equation but show it a hint of weakness and it will exploit it and tear you to shreds, leaving you sitting in pitch blackness in the corner of a room dripping blood onto the floor.
That is what happens to me.

“Suicide is not […]

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Can’t do this anymore

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A couple of years ago i was classed as clinically depressed, they thought i was schizophrenic and i have been trying to end my life for about two years now, all attempts have failed for one reason or another.
In the last 12 months i have had to deal with 3 close friends and a close familiar dying, with me not being allowed to attend 2 of the funerals. All of that is on top of me not having slept a full night in over a year as I’m plagued by nightmares every single night.
After the last one i vowed to try and get […]

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