ok ive only told this to one person. but i just cant stand holding this in!!! i think ive slightly mentioned it before. but heres the complete full on story! :”(
I was in 1st grade. the teacher called my name, and told me that i had to take a reading test in the hallway with her helper! her helper was a boy.
brown hair, and blue eyes, i remember he was tall. i walked with him out into the hallway. i stood at the wall, but he keot walking. he yelled at me to follow so i did. i knew it […]
1. i have CAPD (central auditory processing dissorder)
2. im bipolar
3. im bulimic
4. i cut myself everyday
5. im highly suicidal
6. the principal is like my best friend
7. i have no friends
8. i hide who i really am
9. im totally weird! haha!
10. i have a bf..
11. im not a virgin (of course ive been hurt a lot)
12. ive been raped 8 times
13. my family hates me
14. i was almost bullied to death
15. i almost commit suicide at school but the principal saved me
16. i wish i was beautiful
17. i wish i […]
the truth about me is that i try my hardest to be someone im not. if i were to go in school right now wearing what im wearing now (leggings, skirt, sweater) people would beat me up and make fun of me. instead i go in there wearing hollister and fancy rich people clothes. i feel kinda stupid when i walk down the hall, and this girl comes up to me and says this (one example) “you know youd look WAY better with a bag over your head right!?” me: “i dont know..” Girl: “well its true!!!” *walks away laughing with her 5 best friends* […]
i need help. i feel completely useless. like everything i try jsut isnt working. like no matter what i do. im falling apart. how do i stop the pain, how do i control the hate. how do i stop the thoughts against myself. how do i stop myself from doing something stupid. i need help, yes i need answers! i love u all! and i thank you!
i lay here and wonder.
why did you do this to me?
why did you treat me like i was nothing?
why did you throw me away?
i tried so hard to be completely perfect,
and irresistable with every touch.
i tried and tried to make you smile.
but i was slowly running out of luck.
you put me through so much pain,
and torture,
and agony.
you made me feel stupid,
like i was so useless.
like i couldnt do anything on my own.
i wasnt very independent,
i relied on you,
to help me,
and to carry me through.
but what you did […]
im in 8th grade. i went to a public school but at the moment im @ a learning center. how was i supposed to go to school when, whenever i turn the corner im being beat up, threatened with knifes, pushed to the ground and called fat, ugly, whore, ****, freak, creep, big boobed peice of s***, lousy turd, stupid, dumb. its so hard to handle. the only thing i could do was run into the bathroom sit against the wall and cut. i made that mistake in 2nd grade. a girl told me i looked like a dirty cow!!! so i asked the teacher […]
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