i’ve been suicidal for the last 4 years now but it’s been getting worse every day. a combination of anti-recovery mentality, suicide romantisisation, and my own personal problems have ended up piling onto each other. my suicide attempts have been getting worse as well. my most recent attempt was hanging myself, but that only made me light headed before i pussied out. i guess it was just shame and embarrassment. i thought about someone i knew who ended up causing me to seek therapy and i cut one of my thighs in response. it was like i couldnt control it. i barely have any friends, im almost […]