eternaldarkness

I’m deeply depressed bc I’m not progressing in life. I’m stagnant and stuck in a rut. Stuck in a shitty life.

In my case, I have two MAJOR roadblocks: poor health and lack of money. How does one “beat the odds” when the odds are stacked against you?

I do not wave to die not having accomplished anything -_-

Hm…something to ponder about:

One would think being “great” at something in life would yield success and happiness. But it doesn’t. Often, what happens is that any “talent” you have (beauty, intelligence, humanity, goodness, artistic ability, etc) MAY garner you SOME success, but generally it almost ensures you will fall into the grips of some asshole exploiter/user/manipulator. Yes, you see it in the entertainment world (singers, actors, etc) but they’re not the only ones. They just happen to be famous so everyone knows their stories.

But even normal people reaching a “medium” level of success will have lots of exploiters/users/haters come out of the woodworks […]

I was thinking, wouldn’t it be amazing if I could sing like this? To sing so well that it can evoke feelings in people, even in strangers. Hell, to sing like “sirens” and enchant ppl would be cool too lol 😛

But then the negative part of my brain goes (there’s always a negative to everything in life)…well most famous/talented singers lived sad lives and died tragic deaths, like MJ, Whitney, Amy Winehouse, Britney, Amanda Bynes, Justine Bieber, etc

If you have any talent, the vultures will come and pick you off.
If you have any money (and not evil), the vultures will come […]

This is what happens when a country’s leaders don’t poison their population with toxic chemicals in their water and food:

Meanwhile, here in the US, our kids eat tide pods o_O

This kid almost gives me hope in humanity. Almost. Still have nil hope bc the stupid and evil outnumber the smart and good by 1000:1

Also…how does a seasoned researcher use toxic chemicals in her experiments? Especially ones that literally affect the organism she is studying? Doesn’t that invalidate her entire fucking experiment?

Yet there are TONS of “studies” using terrible methodology that are published every day and the results we are told […]

1…the poor
2…the sick
3…disabled
4…the abused
5…ppl with childhood trauma
6…ppl with shitty parents

1-3…if you’re poor, sick, disabled- you’re 100% going to have a hard time with life. now, not saying 100% off poor, sick and disabled are miserable and want to die, but a vast majority are depressed with hard lives.
4-6…if anyone has been abused, or has childhood trauma, or has shitty parents, you’d know that this shit NEVER goes away. Now, not saying everyone will never attain happiness, but the vast majority have pain, insecurities and have lifelong issues.

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B- Studies consistently show that society’s rate of happiness INCREASES […]

Me- battery is flashing red/low/needs charging -_-

-the food pyramid they taught us was a big fat lie, taught us to eat everything unhealthy so we’d wind up fat and sick, perpetual money machines for the medical industrial complex.

-everything they taught is about Christopher Columbus (and Thanksgiving and Pocahontas) were big fat lies. Columbus basically genocided all the natives and cut off the limbs of natives in Central America if they couldn’t find enough gold for him. But nah, Columbus had a giant Thanksgiving meal with the natives and sang kumbaya is a better story to tell the dumb compliant masses. “History is written by the victors.”

-ducking under a little […]

Interesting video. Lady’s mind is sharp as a tack and healthy as a horse. She’s healthier than most 40yo’s. Zero medication. Watch till the end. The last 3min is related to depression- well- the lack thereof.

(17min)

-Shakira
-Shania Twain
-Uma Thurman
-Halle Berry
-Eva Longoria
-Sanda Bullock
-Sienna Miller
-Christina Milian
-Fergie
-Gwen Stephani
-Demi Moore
-Elizabeth Hurley
-plus many many more

1- If these insanely beautiful and successful women still get cheated on, how does the average person/woman get a good faithful guy? Seems near impossible.
2- Never EVER hire a pretty nanny.

-Can’t do drugs- don’t want to go down that route. Plus I’m too innocent and wouldn’t even know how to get any.

-I don’t like the taste of alcohol. I honestly don’t understand why the entire world loves alcohol so much.

-I do like food but where I live there’s nothing good nearby. That’s what happens when you live in a poor shitty neighborhood. And I’m too poor to order delivery. Prices are exorbitant as it is, let alone delivery apps jacking everything up.

-Can’t do caffeine- even a small amount makes me jittery. It’s insane to me how the rest of America is caffeined […]

1- Be very accomplished and successful and have done a lot, but unhappy
(wrote world-famous books, wrote famous music, created famous artwork, built and designed skyscapers, became a dr/lawyer/CEO/founder of a fortune 500 company, etc)

OR

2- Have done not a single thing in life but you’re happy (example- you’re a HS dropout but married a woman who loves you and is a janitor now)

Yes, dumbass Americans really really do want war with Iran to bring about Armageddon I order to bring Jesus back.

Another reason why I have zero hope in Americans/humanity.
Another reason I want nothing to do with most Americans.
Another reason why I’m hopelessly depressed.

When you are surrounded by idiots and jackals, you can do nothing but hide away in a cave.

What would you do if you had a Death Note?

Get creative lol 😛

Why are people, and by that I mean Americans specifically, so heartless?

There’s a reason why SO many people wind up as alcoholics, drug addicts, porn stars, strippers, etc. Most of these ppl grew up with no parents or abusive parents, were SAed or raped, or grew up in poverty. Most of these ppl had little to no chance at a normal or fair life. Yet the world CRUCIFIES them.

It’s not like they grew up and become serial killers. But even then, serial killers are made not born (very few are born evil, the vast majority are made evil by […]

So I just got a notice today that Yahoo Mail is cutting their mailbox storage to 20GB, down from 1TB free. That by itself isn’t the end of the world, and I”m not singularly mad at Yahoo- but it’s a drop in the bucket of things EVERY giant effing company is doing to us. Since COVID, EVERYTHING has been cut, while costs have risen. From groceries to deliveries to dollar stores no longer being a dollar- EVERY GODDAMN THING has skyrocketed in costs and reduced in services or size.

A single big mac is now $7.61 with taxes here. I […]

Has Anyone Used Any Depression Apps That Were Helpful?

-Name of app and how did it help?

Or am I to assume that whatever is out there is just as useless as the avg/shitty therapists and psychiatrists?

-ability to read someone and know if they’re lying, gaslighting or bullshitting you?
-ability to be an amazing singer/dancer/drawer/painter/writer/footballer/fighter/etc?
-ability to be the best liar/bullshitter and get away with it?
-ability to be super charming and charismatic?
-be like Cesar Milan and be a pet whisperer?
-be super attractive/hot ?
-be a super popular YouTuber/social media person?
-CEO of a company?

-Or Insert Other Talents…

There isn’t anything that brings me joy. Life is full of bs and hardships. And the rich and corrupt will never face any consequences. While the poor suffer and suffer.

Just look at fucking Epstein and Ghislaine Maxwell- she hired a body double (the one in jail doesn’t even fucking look like her!) and Epstein was never dead. His corpse has testicles which Epstein did not have – he had them removed. Not a SINGLE arrest of any of these Pedo AHs- only “resignations” which comes with a golden parachute of pay and benefits. Like WTF.

The only thing that makes feel just a […]