eternaldarkness

I don’t normally follow celebrities- hell, I didn’t even know this kid was in 1 Direction (and no I don’t follow boy bands, or girl bands, or bands in general).

But I find it strange how the media coverage would never even whisper “suicide.” Is it possible it’s an accident? Sure. Is it also possible it wasn’t an accident? Sure. He was reported to be very depressed.

So the hotel manager called 911 and said he was acting erratically, breaking things, and high on drugs and alcohol. And Liam fell from the 3rd floor. Usually most ppl […]

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But what can I do? I’m too tired, mentally and physically, of all this bullshit.

This is about as much “social contact” as I have- posting words to anonymous strangers at a site like SP. Every now and then I post to other groups but I’ve given up on them. Why? All the other groups have TONS of ppl- you post and NO ONE remembers your story. It’s just one post. People reply, and then they forget about you. That’s literally ppl’s attention span. From one post to the next. Hell- I wouldn’t be surprised if Gen Beta can’t even hack 280 character long tweets, given our skyrocketing ADD trends. […]

Most normal ppl are into butterflies and unicorns and other sickening things lol. How many of us here are into horror stories, true crime, true medical mysteries, dark tales, death and just weird unusual things? Vs how many here are into 100% “normal” stuff?

@husk- not trying to discourage you- idc if you get something off the net- funny enough, this just happened to pop up on my feed just now. google is probably “reading” my posts to recommend this to me. so this guy is a dr and does these videos narrating/re-enacting real medical events.

i’m sure this is a rare-ish event, though it’s these kinds of stories that deter me from getting illicit things off the ‘net. even in person, i wouldn’t know how to verify the quality of said items since i know nothing about any kind of illicit items.

one time, a friend’s […]

WOW, I always felt and knew that Americans were dumb since I was in JHS, bc I know our education system is absolute shit. But apparently there’s actual hard evidence to back that up.

@10:55- Study in 2019 (done by British Researchers)-
IQ of Japan = 106.48
IQ of USA = 97.43
Difference = -9.05

That’s NINE whole points, which is HUGE in the IQ scale.
Also, it turns out, it’s not even all due to our shit education system. Our decline in education began in the early 80s. But the decline in American IQs began to be seen as early as the […]

What do you do when you intensely HATE this fucking planet and all the shitty ppl in it?

Yeah yeah “there’s still good ppl out there” but that don’t mean shit when everyone *I* am in contact with are fucking assholes and douchebags. And by in contact with, I don’t mean any current ppl that I am voluntarily choosing to speak to. By “in contact with” I mean all the assholes in my life that fucked me up, abused me, used me, manipulated me, etc. Starting with shitty ass family. And later branching out to shitty ass bosses/superiors. You don’t have […]

I am a logic-based person, so things like “curses” aren’t a real thing- except in this world it seems like some people really are cursed. I, for one.

I mean, logically, it’s bc ppl who are down-trodden get even more stepped on and ignored and screwed in life. The more bad that’s happened to you, the more bad that gets piled on, and the less “normal” ppl want to help you out or want anything to do with you (be friends, etc).

1- why are there only 297 dislikes?
2- Assholes like Matt Walsh (popular right wing podcaster in the US) will spin this into “drs killing the poor victims.” Right wingers never want ppl to have the freedom and agency to control our own body. The sick will never be allowed to escape our misery.
3- Maybe, just maybe, if we had proper health services and social services for the poor, disabled, depressed, better wages, better opportunities, affordable food and housing, etc.- less people would want to end their miserable lives. But nah….that’s too much logic.

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Right winger mentality-

-abortion bad, make it […]

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Just goes to show what a load of crock psychiatry is

Is anyone else completely alone like me? No friends, no family, no SO. Hell, not even a pet.

I had a few friends but they’ve all gone over the years. The last one last year. And I don’t mean “friends” the way American culture defines friends so loosely (like FB friend or hangout friend or anyone you talk to is a “friend” according to Americans)- I have a much more stringent definition of friend- like someone who is actually there for you.

Anyhow, I don’t even have a damn pet (allergies so I cannot). I have ZERO attachment to anyone and anything. […]

SOME ppl get to have great lives, happy lives, with love and comfort and security, while the rest of live us live like shit, in misery?

Yeah yeah “life isn’t fair,” but why shouldn’t it be?

I feel like a lost little sheep… -_-

that a happy and fulfilling life was so damn hard to achieve?

If you could have a superpower (ex flying, rewinding time, mind control, invisibility, happiness, etc) but it only lasts 5s (and there’s a refresh period where you can’t use the 5s power again, for say 5 or 10min), what 5s superpower would you want and what would u do with it? (basically you can’t just keep stacking the 5s + 5s without a break).

(OTHER than unaliving yourself) – what would it be?

I HATE HIGH HUMIDITY!

After months of torturous months of high summer heat and humidity, it’s supposed to be “Fall” now. Even at the “perfect” temperature of 72 degrees (perfect in EVERY other place than here)- it was still 72%+ humidity. Even now at midnight, the humidity is at 66%. This is pretty “low” considering how disgusting the last 5mo has been, but it’s STILL disgusting. UGH.

I literally walk out or anywhere for more than 10s and I start to drip sweat and then have to shower. Sometimes I shower multiple times a day. It gets ridiculous.

So much for the […]

According to Gallup:
-47% of Americans were “very” satisfied with their personal lives in February 2024
-78% of Americans were ‘very’ or ‘somewhat satisfied’ (though I would argue that low level depression can exist with ppl who say they are ‘somewhat satisfied’ with their lives. i don’t considered ‘somewhat satisfied’ to mean ‘happy’ or ‘happy enough.’)

47% = very satisfied
31% = somewhat satisfied
22% = unhappy / very unhappy

At least this study, and studies SINCE covid, actually acknowledge that half the population aren’t all that happy. For all of my life, EVERY fucking study out there kept parroting how ‘95%’ […]