Do you feel like you’re cursed? I feel like I’ve been cursed.
I used to be so capable, and did so much.
Now, I’m a shell of what I used to be.
I used to have confidence in myself, now I don’t.
Part of that has to do with manipulative assholes and gaslighters who purposely whittled down my confidence so they could control me.
Granted, I was never super super confident, but I had SOME confidence in myself. I want at least what I USED to have and idk how to get it back.
All these years of me getting battered by the world and by shitty evil ppl have crushed me.
Depression leads to Procrastination which leads to a myriad of things that fuck us over. And yet, we still procrastinate.
(not anyone on SP)
All you assholes and shitcunts that have screwed me over- I wish you 1000x the pain and misery you brought onto me. Yes, I DO wish the worst pain imaginable onto you. You’re vile shitty fucking pieces of shit. I fucking hate you evil fucking assholes. You deserve to get stabbed and tortured by someone way more evil than you. THAT would be the ONLY justice. For someone to physically and psychologically torture you the same way you did to me, but 1000x worse.
I never did anything to any of you, and yet you have done […]
Yes, I get that there is no “meaning” in life except for what we assign to it. However, there is the question of the biological meaning, or meaning in the Earthen world. By that I mean, it seems all species on Earth breed, evolve, breed some more, and then eventually gets demolished by a stronger life form and cease to exist. The rate of extinction for mammals is about 1M years.
I get survival of the fittest- the best and strongest survive. The best and strongest kill the weaker species and even the weaker ones of their own species. Which explains […]
I can’t get shit done bc I’m always so fucking tired. I can’t fall asleep at night. When I wake up, I feel like utter shit. It isn’t till many hours later that I actually feel half-alive. By the time I actually feel ok, it’s time to go to bed, which I don’t want to bc that’s the only time during the day (night) where I actually feel half-way decent. And this hamster wheel repeats day after day after day. I’m perpetually tired, never feeling good, save a few short hours during the middle of the night when I […]
:'(
You have some humans who invent rockets that can take you to outer space. Other humans have invented computers and cell phones that let you talk to someone across the globe, in real time. And then there are these humans that do the above stupid shit. Tik Tok Challenges.
No, I do not feel bad or sorry for these idiots. If you’re that dumb, it’s only proper for natural selection to select those OUT of the gene pool. Sadly, it seems the human gene pool is headed toward idiocracy rather than higher intelligence.
Like how many dumb tik tok challenges that […]
Would You Rather Be:
A Happy Idiot or A Depressed Genius?
Kid #1- Ariana 6yo
Anyone feel like a failure after watching her? O_o
I don’t believe in reincarnation, but if ever there was a case of one, seems like an adult hopped into a little 6yo body. She’s not just “smart” but quite business savvy.
All 3 kids are amazing ofc, but I feel more depressed and pathetic that a 6yo is doing way more with her life than me. I’m sure she’s extremely privileged, parent’s are upper middle class or upper class, she’s been given opportunities most kids haven’t (she’s been put in private school/tutoring since age 2), I’m sure the parents do […]
Why can’t I just be a happy person?
Why must I be plagued with so many thoughts?
I just want to be a happy, productive, capable person.
Just go out and do things. Be happy.
And not weighed down by thoughts. Or feelings.
1. You get bored with small talk
2. You’re careful with your words (reserved/overly serious)
3. You’re socially awkward
4. You struggle to make good friends (Is making true friends and finding YOUR crowd somewhat of a challenge for you?)
5. You don’t get out much
6. You’re overly analytical (analysis paralysis/indecisiveness)
7. Your mind constantly craves exercise
8. You’re always feeling pressured to succeed
ME:
1. Most definitely!
2. Yes but can chat and engage in useless banter when out on a “fun” night with ppl who only are interested in non-serious conversations
3. Nope, learned over the years to be extraverted when needed
4. […]
No light at the end of the tunnel.
Nothing is exciting.
No I-feel-great-and-want-to-jump-out-the-bed type of feeling.
Every day is blah.
Every day is just getting through the next day.
It’s terrible bc I didn’t always feels this way. The last few years have “killed” me.
https://hbswk.hbs.edu/item/more-proof-that-money-can-buy-happiness
Point of the article- money is ESSENTIAL to a good, happy life, free from stress, free from worry. Or LESS worry and LESS stress. And more FREEDOM to do things. And no, there is no “cap” on money’s positive influence on happiness and life satisfaction- ppl who already make a lot of money and make more become even happier.
Why is it you never hear about assholes getting ripped to pieces? The girl in this video seemed like a nice girl, into nature, a conservationist, was 19 or something and just starting out on her music career. Went for a hike and got attacked by coyotes. I mean I know these attacks are random, and not just animal attacks, but things like freak accidents. We hear stories of ppl just being in the wrong place at the wrong time, but somehow it’s never the assholes that die or get bitten or eaten or something. Like why is that???
Bullshit Bullshit Bullshit
Read the reviews on Amazon plus a more detailed review on another blog. The blog had a favorable review of the book but I can see the bullshit coming from this book- The author literally used a “part-time” neurosurgeon working 40+ hours a week as their first example. Really now? Cutting down to 40+ hours a week is NOT working part time.
I mean, I get it. When I used to work, I worked 80-120 hours during the peak season. Non busy season, maybe 40 hours, but I was generally logging in 60+ on a […]
Or ourselves? -_-
Why do some of us have to be deep thinkers? Thinking only leads to unhappiness and unrest.
Why do some of us want MORE in our lives? Wanting anything more than the status quo or mediocrity leads to unhappiness and unrest.
Why do I have to be so depressed all the time? Life just doesn’t feel full of energy and life. Life just feels tired and having to drag our heavy asses around just to do the basic necessities.
So this girl (wife of a friend) is a flight attendant. I don’t know anything about her but that’s not the point. All she wanted to do was become a F.A. so she can travel the world. It’s a great way to do it if you’re young and healthy and can withstand being on a plane all the time, which she is perfectly fine with. She recently got married to my online friend, they have a house together, he makes very good money, she makes ok money, oh yeah they live in friggin’ HAWAII (jealous). But anyway, they’re both very […]
Well here’s yet another group I don’t belong to bc of my views.
I’m reading posts from the Chronic Illness Group and this woman really wants to have children, but says her parent’s are very against it, and she can’t understand why they can’t be supportive. Someone commented, and not in a mean way, asking, if you can’t take care of yourself, how can you take care of children? (OP wants more than 1). Commenter says even healthy able bodied mothers have trouble bc kids require a lot of energy- which they do. And commenter says what about days when you can’t […]