eternaldarkness

Have had a SHIT life since literally the day I was born. Been nearly half a century now and life has NOT gotten better, only WORSE.

-WHEN THE FUCK DO I GET A BREAK?
-WHEN WILL “THINGS GET BETTER?” as I’m constantly being told this by everyone for the past 22-32 years.

As if my ENTIRE life hasn’t been bad enough…
The Universe wants to throw MORE shit at me.

FUCK YOU UNIVERSE
and
Fuck EVERY SINGLE SHITTY PERSON that has ever screwed me over
and
FUCK ALL THE SHITTY FUCKING DRS that have repeated IGNORED ALL MY SYMPTOMS despite me telling you all for 22 Fucking Years that SOMETHING was wrong.

Do I NOW have a reason to be angry?
And All these MFs kept telling me to “not be angry,” “think happy,” “don’t dwell on the past,” “stop thinking negatively,” “just get over it,” etc
FUCK YOU TOO
cuz NONE of you guys 1- ever gave a […]

If this is true, this is crazy (though not surprising). They should show actual screenshots of those messages.

17yo- autistic, depressed, goes on character.ai –

Texas mother sues AI chatbot for suggesting son should harm his family:

Playing this game…funny the sign in the game says this:

I don’t live in Oregon, but this is fucked up. And what is with 95% of the comments cheering this on??

All of us here think we’re all fucked up in the head- and yes, that’s true. But when I watch these documentaries and true crime stuff…I start thinking…maybe I’m not THAT fucked up after all…

I watched this like 1-2 nights ago. This is a TRUE story- she was arrested and this is actual police footage. So…apparently the husband watches child porn, and because she’s getting ignored by him, she has sex with their dog. Yes, dog. Yes, watch the video. No the video doesn’t obviously show the crazy acts.

I mean, I guess we’re not THAT fucked […]

Loneliness, depression, lack of sleep, anxiety- basically everything we are or have…

I mean, yes, it’s much better to find your true love/partner or have real friendships. But sometimes, being alone keeps you alive. Watched this documentary today- there’s LOTS of documentaries like this where ppl are killed by their bfs/gfs, wives/husbands, family, etc. If you’re a loner, there’s less of that happening.

I mean yes, we do suffer from loneliness and depression, but it’s smarter NOT to get into a relationship with someone who is not good for you- the users/abusers/manipulators. And there are TONS of them out there, not just a “few bad apples” society wants you to think there […]

This 60s clip is HILARIOUS.
Maybe you’ll get a chuckle out of it like I did.

“Uh-oh, it saw me.” 😀

Are We the “Crazy” And “Defective” Ones Or Is Society The One That Is Messed Up?

It’s like that quote “it is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society” –
-Conforming to societal norms does not equate to true well-being, especially if the society itself is flawed.
-It implies that genuine health encompasses more than just fitting in and may involve questioning and challenging unhealthy societal structures.

It’s like when the first people who questioned and challenged that the Earth was not flat were told they were crazy, stupid, out of their minds, and ridiculed. Now, ofc, we “know […]

In the US, we have been propagandized by greedy corporations and religious organizations to view suicide as a sin, as something evil or selfish. Much profit is to be made off of people’s suffering. Sad? Why, just take some happy pills for the rest of your life! Psychiatric pharmaceuticals is a TRILLION dollar industry.

But in other countries, like Japan for example, “The general attitude toward suicide has been termed “tolerant”, and in many occasions Japanese society sees suicide as a morally responsible action.”

We would do SO much better if suicide or depression wasn’t so stigmatized. It’s crazy how we all […]

Thought this was funny:
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I wish more people would think before procreating. The younger generation (Z, Alpha) are finally getting it- but people in MY generation and older- holy cow- the default was always popping out children left and right because “it’s what you’re supposed to do.” -_-

@dying2die- i think you mentioned your fascination with famous model deaths. This just happened to come across my feed. Think you might find this interesting:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n-3BAk3s_uQ&ab_channel=UNTAMED

Successful, beautiful and dead…

One of the 2 receptionists keeps lying to me about dates/times not being available. In the past, I would just call and hope I’d get the guy- the other receptionist- and he usually books the date/time I requested. But now she’s got him to lie and refuse to make the appts as well. Then one day they were both leaving an hour early and some other guy who I’ve never seen before was covering the front desk. Lo and behold- he’s able to make the appts for me for the dates/times I want and gave me no issues.

I’m sick […]

What do you guys think?

00:02 – 00:59 The Dangers of Fluorescent Lighting
01:00 – 01:49 The Disappearance of Waiting and Anticipation
01:56 – 02:59 The Plight of Placelessness in Modern Spaces
03:01 – 03:51 Disconnect from Nature and Grounding
04:07 – 05:09 The Weaponization of Nostalgia in Marketing
05:11 – 06:09 Public Spaces: Where Have They Gone?
06:09 – 07:17 Modern Architecture and Its Coldness
07:17 – 08:18 Nature Deprivation and Its Effects
08:18 – 09:28 The Overload of Choices in Life
09:28 – 10:31 The Hidden Dangers of Sitting

Life was already expensive for decades- rent/food/gas/etc. But life has never been MORE expensive since COVID. Every damn corporation has used Covid as an excuse to jack up the price of literally everything. In the USA, cost of food has skyrocketed, cost of rent which was already sky high, has gotten more sky high, cost of goods for everything across the board has gone up. OFC now after the tariffs, it’s going to be even WORSE in the next coming years. Great time to be alive eh?

Am I the only one to b!tch about the cost of living? I […]

I feel like NO ONE (or hardly anyone)
1- understands me (or cares)
2- believes the same things I do (politically, economically, socially, medically, etc)- or believes even half the stuff I do (ie NOT mainstream, NOT Left, NOT Right, NOT Libertarian, NOT Green)- there’s certain things I believe from each of those parties but certainly not most.
3- understands my depression (or cares)

What do you do when you feel like an alien amongst sheeple? Everyone thinks they are “awake” but they still blindly follow their “side” or their “guys.” No one picks apart each and every “thing” and analyzes that thing or […]

How many of us are stuck in a apt/neighborhood/city/state that we don’t want to be in due to finances? I think there’s many of us in that boat. Me, heartless, trulymindless, Soda (unless he was finally able to move out of that apt)- that’s at least 4. How many others?