always being depressed and feeling like shit. It’s been 40+ years of this shit and no, things don’t “get better.” It’s only gotten worse over the years and decades. What is the point of going on if this continues to be the present and future? The only thing stopping me is not having a way out. I don’t know any fool-proof guaranteed way that is quick and painless. Everything has it’s caveats and flaws, and when it comes to actually committing it, I can’t risk it failing bc life could be MUCH much worse if you fail and do […]
they were shot by a random bad guy?
Like imagining you went to the bank or store, and some random bad person is there, holding up the bank or store or restaurant with a gun, and you’re like, “ok, shoot me and put me out of my misery.”
I wouldn’t want to suffer and be bludgeoned to death or anything. It’s a very specific fantasy about being shot (1 shot, quick and fatal) without me having to suicide.
I have these thoughts ALL the time.
Too afraid of using a gun on myself bc I hear of so many stories of how ppl survive and are fucked up […]
I am all alone in this world. No one understands me. No one cares about me.
I need love but do not have any.
I need compassion and understanding but do not have any.
I do not have friends. I do not have S.O., I do not have family that gives a shit about me.
I need physical help but do not have any.
I need better health but I’m just wasting away and getting worse.
My head hurts
My body hurts
My heart hurts.
I want it all to end.
There is no light at the end of the tunnel.
I am […]
I am fucking up my life bc I’m too depressed to take care of things and do the stuff I need to do.
So apparently Ted Bundy worked at a suicide hotline when he was a psych major in college. Imagine calling a suicide hotline and getting a serial killer on the other end of the line?
Everyone tells you to call one of those places when you’re depressed. But you ever wonder who you are talking to when you call one of these places? No one ever thinks of WHO is on the other end of the line.
The ONE and ONLY time I ever called the suicide hotline, (I was depressed but NOT suicidal) the lady on the other end of the line managed […]
Which one are you?
Me: #3 SUS!
What would you do if you found:
1- $10?
2- $100?
3- $1000?
4- $10,000?
5- $100,000?
6- $1,000,000?
7- $10,000,000?
(let’s say it’s not anyone’s lost money or any mafia money, so it’s ok to keep it or use it)
8- and would you still be depressed af if you had 1M or 10M?
Very profound and heartbreaking video. Definitely check it out!
This is why stuff like “thinking positive” doesn’t work on a lot of ppl.
If you’ve been abused/neglected/etc it goes way beyond just “thinking happy thoughts.”
Also, a commenter made a great point:
“It’s sad and everyone understands when it’s a child, but these same children become adults and people just expect them to be fully functioning and well-developed. There is no compassion then.”
EXACTLY.
We are just blamed and told to just “suck it up” and “forget about the past” and “just move on.” Anyone who’s ever been abused knows it’s not easy to just […]
Came across this on reddit.
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“In my opinion this is why our smartest individual often suffer from crippling addictions.
The difference between “smart” and “dumb” is usually just focus with a sprinkling of aptitude. “smart” people focus more on their tasks for longer, but i dont think thats always a choice. Often “smart” people are frankly obsessed with whatever it is they are doing, to an unhealthy degree, and not by choice. Some minds just always need that level of stimulus, and for them i think the only way to ever actually rest in a lot of ways is to numb with substances. In […]
Would you rather have one superpower (telepathy, teleporting, flying, etc) OR be very happy?
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/i-hear-you/202208/the-dark-side-of-staying-positive?fbclid=IwAR1TGzZbDUhV6x1Ti1_qpZM_35I-lb4fNLLlDN6XpRpReEJbuelQnC2yz1g
A day where they shove happy couples in our faces, as if we weren’t lonely and depressed enough already. -_-
People who are chronically depressed tend to stay chronically depressed till we die. We may have periods where it isn’t “so” bad, but it always comes back. It never goes away, and we are never “cured.” It’s like that song, “hello darkness, my old friend…”
Everyone just says to go:
1- call a suicide hotline
2- talk to a therapist
People are always quick to say, there’s all these help out there, just make that call, talk to someone, etc. But I’ve done all that and NONE of it helped me. Occasionally it helps to vent sometimes (if it’s due to something that angered me), but otherwise, it feels so empty. Heck, it feels more empty than stuffing one’s face with food, bc at least you feel “good” for a tiny moment as you’re eating said junk food.
Not to mention that it takes having insurance, good insurance, or […]
Makes you wonder- is it us that is faulty, or is society sick, and depression/SH/loneliness/ despair, etc our response to this sick and broken society? Or I suppose, both.
“Is society healthy, that an individual should return to it? Has not society itself helped to make the individual unhealthy? Of course, the unhealthy must be made healthy, that goes without saying; but why should the individual adjust himself to an unhealthy society? If he is healthy, he will not be a part of it. […]
How does one not feel so alone, so depressed and suicidal when you have no one in your life? When you feel like no one loves you? When you have no one who truly cares about you?
I mean REAL friendships, REAL connections.
No go for a walk or go journal type of stuff. That’s for when one is sad.
Is there ANYTHING that can realistically pull us out of a DEEP DEEP DEEP Depression? I’m at a point where I’m in despair- I’ve lost hope that “things will be better.” When you’ve waited years and decades, and those words haven’t turned true, and things only have gotten worse, not better. And once you’re middle-aged or old, realistically, what “hope” is there left that “things will be better”? The older you are, the less likely it’s going to happen before you eventually kick the […]
I am hopelessly depressed