I feel empty
I don’t feel anything
it’s like I just wanna sleep
that’s the only time that I don’t have to pretend that I am ok.
and wort of it all, I don’t know why.
Will the feeling of hopelessness ever go away?. Will I ever feel or just even be normal again?. Why do i still have suicide thaughts even though i went through all this counselling seeing all the dr’s even being on meds for almost 2 years freaken….. i am so messed up
I am haunted by ghosts of my past
past failures and mistakes
Failures and mistakes that makes my future dark
I am scared to live
I am scared to enjoy what is good
I am scared that it will end like my past
how do I brake these chains that’s holding me back
how do I brake free from these ghosts that’s haunting me
how do I live again???????
I found that people especially in the work place will judge me because of my depression.
I want to say to those who judge others because of their depression – “Do not Judge someone before you have walked several miles in their shoes!!!!!”
If I had a choice I would not have chosen depression as an illness. I do not want to feel like this. I don’t want to have an emotional roller coaster ride every day of my life.
Endless hours of unbearable pain.
Unbearable pain that cannot be explained
Why do I have to feel this way?
Can’t this feeling of hopelessness just go away?
I am so tired, so fed up
Can’t I just die, get it over with?
I don’t want to try anymore
I can’t try anymore
I have nothing left inside of me.
I had enough
I had enough
Why do I have to feel like this?
I want to end my life
I just can’t take this anymore
Please just let me die
The world would be better of