has anyone here tried ODing on it?
its the only thing that keeps me going, I feel constantly paranoid that the people who are here for me now will lose interest in me
I want to make them love me as much as I do them how can I change myself for them
What is it all really
we may set ourselves up each day to be optimistic but bad things continue to happen I don’t want to get emotionally attached to anything anymore the despair when someone you care about hurts you or when inconveniences happen is just too unbearable
i don’t want to live life hollow and emotionless but there’s no other way to get by you have to shield yourself from pain is the pleasure really worth all the torment
I’ve become a different person to who I was when I first came here and that’s a good thing. I still crave emotion and pain and fear as a a substitute for the other emotions missing from my life, but I no longer contemplate killing myself. I don’t know how, I haven’t received therapy, I haven’t changed much around me, but I’ve grown because I stuck it out and even now things aren’t perfect but I’ve been able to help and understand so many other people because I didn’t let myself die.
please take the time to reconsider, things do change for the better or worse, […]
I know sometimes you don’t want the seemingly useless advice people give you. That’s what I’ve seen anyway.
Im not a therapist; I myself am not in a decent state, but if you want to talk about anything and everything without constant advice feel free to contact me.
georgiahjones@googlemail.com
I don’t understand myself. I am truly privileged; I have a family that puts me in their best interests, friends who care about me, I’m not poor, not sick, I live an average middle class life and I have no hope for it.
A future that would satisfy me is not realistic. In order to anticipate the future I would have to be a different person and be extremely lucky. I dread the future and feel haunted by the past. A friend told me to focus on the present but I struggle to find pure happiness in my present life.
I know what should make me happy […]