Ive been battling with depression and shit for a long time. Recently I started becoming really close with a friend of mine. Like. Too close. All I want is his attention these days cause it’s the only thing that makes me remotely happy. It’s not fair to him. And I don’t want to have feelings for this dude but I do. I’ve been struggling to keep from throwing myself over a cliff for his sake really. I don’t want to hurt him, but I don’t know if I can take anymore of this life.