Everything is prepared, in about 20-30 minutes I will go into my bathroom, sit in the tub, zone out to some good music, and fall asleep. I’ve wanted to do this for so long. I wish I could say proper goodbyes to a few people before I go but that would tip them off to what I am about to do.
I wish things could have worked out differently for me but I guess an average life was too much to ask for. Oh well.
Tomorrow I will attempt suicide for the second time. The first time was basically a joke as I had no idea what I was doing. Since then I have dedicated months to finding an effective method and I think I have.
Tonight I will be setting up a series of delayed emails that I will schedule to be sent out to people sometime next month.
Looking forward to going out the same way I have spent the majority of my life. Alone.
I was born with an anxiety disorder as well as some minor facial deformities and cognitive deficits that affect my ability to socialize and have been struggling with all these things along with major depression and body dysmorphia for much of my life (am 21 btw). I have nothing in life, no friends, just dropped out of college, can’t hold a job, and very little family. I actually just met my father for the first time this past year and was hopeful that that could blossom into a positive relationship. But while I recently was in his city for unrelated reasons I offered to meet up with […]
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