It seems that no matter how hard I try I just end up back to where I started… I don’t know how much longer I can do this I mean if this is what life is going to be like, what’s the point of living? I fight every day to survive but it just seems that everything is a fight and happiness just seems to bypass me. Am I just a bad person that I do not deserve happiness? Peace? or the feeling that tomorrow is a new day with new hope?! I don’t have hope I can’t even remember what it felt like ?. […]
Why is it that some people in life are comfortable with everything, they have everything. All I want is someone to share life with and to depend on but I don’t. I see people who are literally the meanest arrogant people ever but they are happy they have everything – big houses, fancy cars, trips overseas. And me I just struggle to make ends meet every time and I do the right thing I do right by others but I guess doing the right thing doesn’t pay off, all you get is a big fuck you from life!!
Today i was told i’m the problem, i’m bad luck! all this by the same people i do everthinng for no matter what. The worst part is i don’t have it in me to fight to defend myself. maybe i am the problem maybe i am bad luck..if i kill myself maybe they’ll be happy and have all the luck in the world :(. atleast i’ll find peace
A mother is supposesd to love you, to support you, to be there for you, to build you up in life.. but my mother is destorying me… i don’t know what to.. i can’t walk away cz shes my mother.. maybe killing myself is the only way to save myself..
What does a mother’s love feel like?
Why do we have family?
To use you?
To make you feel like shit everyday?
To make you question everything and everyone?
I have family to make me feel like killing myself is the best solution to everything. Because no matter what I do, I’m never good enough, which is a sad reflection of my life. Sometimes I wonder why was I born and suffer every freaking day. Maybe I did something wrong in my past life or something. Or maybe its the fact the God just doesn’t see me. I try my best to save others but who will save me?
I live everyday with the hope that I die the next……. But God doesn’t even want me………
I don’t know what I am doing
I don’t know where I am going
I don’t know why I am here
I don’t know who I am
But I do know one thing…
I have never ever been appreciated or loved by anyone. If I killed myself, no one will notice until they want something… people depend on me but who do I depend on???? I am tired of being alone, I am tired of wanting, I am tired of everything.
If I don’t wake up tomorrow, it would be best gift I could ever get. But I know me and my luck.. that […]
i fell in love with him from a distance but he didn’t notice me. i feel like nothing now i know i am nothing. I’m just here, a fat fugly girl taking up space…a lot of it. sometimes i wonder if things will ever change but the past always serves as a reminder that it will never!!! I’m always going to be this person, the person i can’t love, a person that no one notices…
in life we all have a reason to life but I do not think I have one. I live each day hoping to die the next day. I’m just a waste of space. I can’t do this anymore.. pretending to be happy faking a smile and wishing for better. I should by now that wishing and hoping are a waste cause nothing ever changes. wish I could die but I guess god is just one cruel bastard!
no matter what I do…I’ll never be good enough 🙁
i feel so lost and confused.. i don’t know what to do?? everywhere i turn there is problem after problem!! i can’t do anything right.. wish i was dead..wish i had the guts to kill myself the way my life is goin may be that will come soon
i let everyone down but most of all i let my mummx down 🙁 im such a loser but an even bigger failure i can’t even do dthat little thing properly! i wish i was dead!!!
i let everyone down.. i let my mummy down. im so tired of being a failre
im so lost and im trying so hard to find myself…but cant seem to find anything
you used to stare at me now you don’t
you have a girlfriend and i don’t have you.. and never will…
Just as i thought things were about to change.. I get pulled back into this never ending cycle of failure. Wish i could die i feel like im just wasting my time living if all im goin to be is a failure…
Its sad when the best part of your life is falling asleep…
I feel so lost..
When you are a dead man’s child.. No one will defend you.. No one will give a damn!!