If I had my stash on me right now it could just be over. I go back and forth from being invincible to being invisible. None of this is real and it’s all a fun game, a “fun” game. Everybody wins, everybody loses. I don’t know what could make this change, I just don’t see why it’s worth it. I know I have a pretty poor self worth but it’s hard to feel good about yourself when they keep telling you you’re doing everything wrong. You know everyday is just a pointless attempt to keep my body here for the sake of everyone else, my […]
You know I’ve realized something
The more I think I’m bettering everyone else off, the more damage I do
For myself, but mostly others
They never get to feel what I feel
They never get to experience the love I have for them
I keep distorting everything I think life is supposed to be full of
And in order for my love to be shared I have to be here
I’m loving no one if I decide to leave
As badly as I feel, and as much as I believe the world won’t notice my absence, I won’t leave here until all my love is […]
its inevitable but ill keep pushing it off for one more day. one more day because i want a reason to stay; one more day because i want a better reason to go?
mostly I am gone already I just have to make sure everyone else will be okay. it just keeps replaying over and over in my head how people will react and im mad at myself for doing that to them. i just wish there was a way i could make everyone understand and they would let me go. just stop trying to fix me because im not broken im just wrong. if only […]