I was raped as a sophomore in high school. I was having some sexual identity issues, it never felt right saying I was straight, nor did it feel right saying I was gay, and i didn’t have any sexual experience to really base it off of either. So I went to a party that my second cousin once removed or whatever had invited me to, her best friend and I had broken up on good terms so we actually remained in contact until that night. Bunch of people I didn’t know in a town 40 minutes away, seemed like the perfect place to experiment. Well, […]
So, I have just been stuck with this crushing weight on my chest. I am currently going to school, looking for a house, training a new puppy, running an autism classroom with no teacher, looking for a second job, and my wife is pregnant while only working 10 hours a week…So our finances are all fucked up, and I have no idea what to do! How do people without anxiety or depression handle this stuff?! Any suggested coping mechanisms? Everything I have ever done no longer works for me, or now makes it worse!
So, I posted on here awhile back about how I was finding a neutral state to live in…not happy, but not depressed. Well since then I have started therapy and things have gotten worse. Actually it’s not that they got worse, just that I began to realize how shit I was being treated by my family. That my parents are actually alcoholics, both them and my brother use me for money, that my sister is a carbon copy of my mother, and that they only want me around so they have someone to control. These weren’t my extrapolations, they were my therapists…at first I just […]
I don’t know how to talk to my family about what is going on with me because I have always been told throughout my life that my feelings don’t matter and that I don’t really feel that way…which also makes me believe that I don’t matter.