I don’t know how to talk to my family about what is going on with me because I have always been told throughout my life that my feelings don’t matter and that I don’t really feel that way…which also makes me believe that I don’t matter.
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They taught you wrong. They don’t have feelings, their feelings don’t matter?
Your feelings matter, trust me, ignore their wrong teaching. Did you not found anyone who told you they have feelings and they matter?
I was told that my parents and siblings did and they mattered, but not mine.
Why?
Because they have this idea about me and how I am supposed to be, based on how I was when I was younger. These negative emotions and ideas didn’t fit with that, so I was just “being overly dramatic”
Why do you have these negative feelings?
I have ADD as well, now I don’t know how much you know about people with ADD but when we are idle…that always spells trouble. So whenever I am not active all these thoughts about being a loser, lazy, never amounting to anything start to pile up. For example, I do not think I am an intelligent person, I was told all my life I was, but I got a B while I was in school…everything else A. I thought that everyone was a straight A student like me and that when they said they got lower they were being hard on themselves, but for me when i got a B it was the end for me, I was a failure. I also scored a 35 on the ACT without a calculator, your max score is a 36…but I lost that one point in the math portion because I forgot to get a calculator! I never took it again because I thought all I would do is just score lower and lower. I also never accepted special accommodations for having ADD and always felt ashamed of it and that I did something wrong. These are the normal thoughts of someone with ADD.
It’s hard
I feel you! I used to be like that and I held it all in. The more you love the more you suffer. keep praying and if you thank God when times are bad he will hear you all the louder! It’s hardest to thank God and pray when things are looking bleak, but that’s when it counts the most. Hang in there and be patient with God. One time I gave up on God and I grew so bitter at the whole world. I hated myself and the world and I felt abandoned by God. I was so destructive and I hated life. Then 4 years later the life I had tried to build back up just fell apart and I was so broken and done as a last ditch effort I offered my mangled heart to Jesus and refused to stop praying and demanded he prove that he is who he says he is and 4 months of praying 24/7 later all these miracles started happening and I was finding my faith again! God is with you, don’t doubt that he loves you even at your worst. Fight the fight of faith and never give up on God.
Religion is not for me
It’s less about religion and a set of rules and more about relationship between you and your heavenly father which can be achieved through prayer/meditation. He can strengthen you and help you like no person ever could. He offers a spirit of power, love and discipline. Who wouldn’t want that?
Please stop, I am obviously not interested and I do not want you pushing your belief system on me.
I know how you feel. They’re naïve to depression and other mental health issues. The worst is when they say “you need to get over this”.
Well I calculated it and one person is only 0000000001333333333333333 of the population.
So I guess you can determine your worth from that number.
Sorry, .0000000001333333333333333%
What you are describing is a characteristic of dysfunctional families. Very sad. Very painful. Makes a person feel worthless. How well I know…