Today my parents told me they where separating, I have never felt worse in my life than what I feel right now :'(
I feel like guys aren’t asking me out because they all think I’m a lesbian.
Every secret I write, I can picture on a postcard that I could send into Post Secret.
I lie about almost everything, it’s always details.
You’ve yelled at me so much that I can hear you yelling my name in my head.
When I was little, I always used to take great care of my toys because of toy story, I still do.
My dad is my friend more than he is my dad.
My mom is still trying to make up for the fact that she neglected me when […]
I wear dark hoodies during the summer because I’m to self concious to do otherwise.
Yes mom, I know exactly where those cuts are from, I put them there.
The entire year you tried to convince me you wheren’t a douchy hipster, I didnt believe you because I liked you too much, I don’t like you anymore and I now realise that you really are just a douchy hipster.
The most hurtful words anyone ever said to me hurt me more then they should have.
I always feel like people are talking about me or hate me more then they actually do.
I lied […]
Had you known me in January you would have known a very sad individual. Had you given me a gun, I would have pulled the trigger. Had you given me a rope, I would’ve hung myself. Had you let me drive, I would’ve sped up and crashed. Had you seen me at a bus stop, you would’ve seen me jump. The point is in January, I wanted to die. I thought this was my only solution in life, there was nothing wrong with my life but I still hated it. I hated myself, my family, my peers, school, basically I hated everything. So this is […]
I hate my mom. I have this rage when it comes to my mom. She walks into the same room as me and want to leave. The thought of her disgusts me. I have no reason to hate her but she bothers me. I can’t stand her I don’t know why please help.
When you are depressed, you don’t get better it’s there forever.
When you cut, you feel better.
You’re suicidal, you see death in every day places, jump in front of a car, a train, a bus, off a bridge, drown yourself in a bath, take a knife and bleed out, electrocute yourself, drive as fast as you can and crash, hang yourself. That bridge is high enough, that rope is strong enough, that bus is fast enough.
You’re waiting for the right date, because your fears hold you back.
You are scared of, life after death, failure in your attempt, the grief you will cause, […]
I just had this overwhelming desire to go and hang myself, I wanted to die so badly. It’s almost like I’ve been divided in two and part of me wants to end it all now, there is nothing to live for and I could never care about anything or anyone. And the other half wants to live and has excepted the fact that I can’t love people and that I should still live just so I can do the few things that make me happy. But right now the living side is losing. Maybe if make a failed attempt, I can get help…… Unlikely, I […]
I was driving home today and all I wanted to do was floor it, go as fast as I could and crash in to anything and die. What is wrong with me…..
Yeah me neither. So for those of you who don’t know I play in a couple jazz bands at school, I play bass, and that is something that I love doing. I was later diagnosed with tendinitis in my wrist and fingers because of bass playing and it can be quite painful sometimes but has never really slowed me down. More recently I was diagnosed with Tinnitus, noise induced hearing loss, it’s because of our drummer who plays extremely and unessacerely loud, I stand beside him for 1-2 hours each day. We have told him to shut up numerous times and to not play when […]
Hello Again, Friend Of A Friend.
Damn it’s been a month or something. I was sure getting away from the bad would make me better, for a couple days maybe. And now everyone is gone, no Maelin, no Deep Abyss. I hate how people are disgusted by cutting, what would you know?
Suicide Is Painless, biggest lie I ever heard.
Anyway I guess it’s good to be back, as good as good can be.
Thanks for reading, Frontier Psychiatrist.
(New username is gonna take some getting used too :/ also I am not actually a psychiatrist :P)
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