If I Die Today All The Pain Will Go Away, If I Die Tommorow One More Day Of Sorrow

Don’t die my friend of a friend. 🙁 I know if you are determined that nothing I say will matter but…please listen?

You greatly underestimate yourself…and life. To assume you have nothing to live for is just wrong. And to assume you cannot love is also, wrong.

I have a fiend who very much has trouble ‘loving’ because he can’t stop treating those who might love him poorly, so eventually everyone leaves him. But he still has my friendship, and he still knows he can sit and talk to me about anything in the world. He freaks out sometimes because he knows his years are slipping away and yet he still can’t break his habit of chasing the good ones away.

But over the years he has learned that, together, we can laugh our asses off daily, and that most of the time, that, and the smiles that it brings, is enough. So what I’m saying is that…even if you are as dysfunctional as the friend I mentioned…you will still find lots to smile about and yes, the love of good friends, eventually. Don’t judge your entire life or future on one bad or boring chapter.

You sound young and impatient? Like we all were once. The truth is that you do not know what the future will bring. It is hard to see good things when we are going through the bad times…but good times will come, just as sure as the bad times will. That’s life. And like the rest of us, if you just give yourself a chance to get older and wiser, you will find both smiles and love will become easier to find. Promise.

I also want to say this…my brother hung himself last year. And I will always hurt over this. I dream of him each night and wake every morning with a badly broken heart. If only he would have given me a small chance to help. 🙁

Judging from the amount of blood I cleaned up from the floor the hanging didn’t go as planned. It looks like he probably hung there for several days slowing dying from the blood trickling into his lungs. Probably brain dead. If you look into this you will find that hanging is a terrible way to do it. It rarely works and either leaves most people with a permanently damaged throat and neck, or brain damaged from a lack of oxygen. If you think life is hard now…how hard will it be if you are still here and permanently damaged? Please think before you do this. It is a bad way to go…it will badly hurt those who may love you…and most important…it is absolutely not necessary!

You just need to get through your bad times and work towards better days. On the bad days just find a way to get to tomorrow…read a book, play a video game, take yourself for a drive or to a restaurant…anything just to get to the next day…then the next…and the next. Eventually good, no great things will come. You just need to be patient…and do the things you can to improve your life. Even little things will eventually lead you to lots of smiles and happiness. I promise you this is true if you will just be patient and make a little effort to improve things.

I hope you will try! Don’t give up! Decide to get stubborn and push ahead despite the set-backs or bad days and you absolutely will eventually find all the good things that seem distant now. They are out there, waiting for you! 🙂