my dad found out that i cut… he said he’s sending me to a therapist if i do it again… great. i cut again tonight and i know he is going to find out and send me :/
i hate how it always seems like the answers in life you need the most are always the ones they forget to answer….. always. nomatter what i get the wrong answer, i just want the truthes of life… not some shit a freak made up to make it all ok…. i just want some answers.
hey everyone, i recently got back together with my old boyfriend, i never really got over him… watching what he does in class, caring when he gets a new girlfriend i really liked him but i made a stupid mistake and i ended the relationship… but now we are back together and i feel happy again, but all some of my friends are acting really disaproving of me with him (he sort of does a bunch of illegal stuff) but i love him so fuck them
Today I realized how strange my parents treat me, my dad is over protective and paranoied ever since his brother died of an overdose and yet he abuses me both emotionaly and phisicaly, my momther says if she had to chose between me and my father she would always chose me and yet she stands by and watches me suffer. Both of my parents are are paranoied like I said earlier about things like me doing drugs, drinking, or cutting myself and yet when my scars from the years of cutting are showing, they pretend not to see them or they buy my lame excuses. […]
I’ve stared cutting again. I stopped for a long time, long for me at least, but today something inside me broke and I started again. It’s not like I cut deep or anything I just hate how good it makes me feel. When I’m cutting I feel as though I can let everything go and just relax. The only time I even feel like me is when I’m cutting, but i don’t want it to be that way, I want to be able to feel things without hurting myself.
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I have a bunch of friends right now that all seem really happy with life… Pretty much all of them have boyfriends or girlfriends and the ones that don’t seem happy to keep it that way. So I can’t really connect with them anymore, they seem very distant and I can’t act myself around them or they will think I am acting like a freak. Trust me I’ve tried it before. So the point of telling you that was this, I can’t take it anymore… I can’t take acting like a different person just to make other people happy… So I’ve seriously considered killing […]