About Alice

My name is Alice and I am an 19 year old trans-female. I am a freshman at CSCC. I have identified as trans since I was in 8th grade, but I have felt trans since I was a 1st grader. I am still in my male body though, but I do crossdress in private. I sexually identify as a lesbian which also includes other trans-women. I first started having depression after I first learned I was transgender and ever since it's been getting worse. I also have dissociative disorders such as derealization/depersonalization disorder which was progressing towards multiple personalities, but luckily it was addressed early enough to be at a co-conscious state. Gender Dysphoria runs my life and it has caused most of my self-loathing. Not because I have it, because how people react to me being transgender. I am a cutter and I am also into suffocation as means of coping. I have tried 15 times to end my life so far and the number has been slowly rising. My biggest phobia is abandonment and being alone forever...

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